I was about 6 years old when my mom explained I was a boy and not a girl when she caught me in her makeup. So I have always been female inside so when I came of age I naturally was attracted to males. I still forget this body is male sometimes. I always wanted to be a housewife and raise kids. I was told I was gay back around 7th grade and a couple weeks ago I found I am really a transgender M to F which makes sense to me
Right after puberty, I always knew I liked women. However, I had some feelings for men that I usually denied during my teen years (and, for the most part, even ignored, though not to the point where I acted hostile about it). I denied my attraction for the same sex until I was around 19 years of age, when I finally came to realize that I may not be 100% straight (in hindsight, far from it). It was during my later college years when I finally came to terms with my bisexuality. So yeah, very gradual.
Honestly, I quite remember being attracted to He-Man and other half naked cartoon characters... in early elementary school. lulz I guess in middle school I went through a "confused" state, when I was interested in both genders. And around 9th grade was when I fully accepted it.
im still questioning...but im pretty sure im bi. i think i started to realize it when i started noticing how gorgeous women are but still thinking guys are hot.
It was a veeeery slow process for me to discover that I was a lesbian. I was pretty much ignoring a lot of clues too, like how I get more attached to lesbian fictional couples over straight ones, how I didn't react the same way when surrounded by some boy-crazy friends, staring at hot women in the train, wanting to take a peek at cleavage when we go change in the classroom if we had to do so, little things like that. Add that to the fact that even if I try, I never seem to get a male crush, nor really had a desire for one. And for some reason, those romantic films where boy meets girl, they fall in love, get married and have 2.4 children never seemed to make sense for me.
I fell outta my chair. Seriously. And as far as the OP goes, I don't really remember. 13 was a crazy year for me and I know I dated my first girl that year, but I can't really say that I thought "i like this girl so I must be a lesbian." Over time, i've figured out what I do and don't like. It's a lot simpler to just tell people I'm a lesbian because I don't really find men attractive. If I ever fell in love with a man, I'm sure I'll be open to giving it a shot. Id be a sorry excuse for a human if I was like "NOPE, can't love you. your body sucks." That would just be rude.
I knew when I got a sudden urge to look at the person behind me in math and when I did I found him attractive but I thought I was staight until we got paired up for a project went home and kissed me. At that very moment I knew that I was gay... Kinda weird but true.
I noticed the lack of attraction to guys long before I realised I was attracted to girls. When my female friends would talk about guys they liked, I would just sit there thinking, "I don't get it." High school is when I remember starting to have feelings for other girls, but I'm so incredibly dense that it took me a while to notice. I had crushes on girls; my eyes were drawn to pretty girls; I would imagine kissing them, etc., but I still managed to convince myself that I wasn't gay. Eventually other people started to ask me about my orientation, and it just felt so wrong telling them I was straight. That is what finally got me to start thinking about my sexuality. I was still largely in denial for many years, until it clicked, less than two months ago. On a side note, when I was about 5 or 6, my female classmates played this game where they chased the boys and tried to kiss them. I didn't want to be the odd one out, so I played along, except I chased my female friend and tried to kiss her instead of chasing boys like the rest. We are still friends, and she loves to tell that story any chance she gets.:icon_redf I really should have known.
I kissed my current/only girlfriend and I liked it I'm very much into guys but I do find women pretty...
Summing up, when I was 13 and my group started talking about how hot was every girl that walked around when I didn't even look at them but discretely at boys, though I was extremely shy then, I started to realise I was the only one that had feelings for the "wrong" genre and that shyness didn't have much influence on what I was feeling, it was something else. I don't remember that time quite well, but I even tried to convince myself I was straight, nowadays I'm glad I'm so different to the others.
I knew when I was in 6th grade and everyone was talking about girls and I just didnt see what they saw in them and I couldnt stop thinking about guys
I think it was the first week of seventh grade when we had to change in the locker room for gym class when I realized that these feeling I had always had for certain other boys were sexual...and it really scared me.
In middle school, I kept noticed this guy Chaz who sat across from he and things started happening down there.
I only admitted it to myself when I was 47 (three years ago - what a waste of time getting to that position!). Looking back it was clear from the age of 13 but I spent 34 years keeping it very carefully under wraps to others and myself.
For me, it was when I discovered porn and I could only watch the male actor and that made my willy go up, and what really confirmed it was when one of my ex-friends jokingly ran behind me and groped my balls and penis and I felt "something"
I always knew on some level. It really didn't engrave itself into my soul until I saw Ken. I was 10, and my older cousin had a friend. (Ken, the roommate.) Blonde, blue eyed, grinning all the time. They played mortal kombat on the sega a lot. Every time he was around, I was blushing, feeling butterflies in my stomach, goosebumps. I was utterly smitten, and I knew from that moment on that I was and always will be really captivated by other guys. :icon_redf
Let's see... always uncomfortable with my genitals, called myself by several different names, such as Jaylyn, and Cookie. Wanted to wear pink all of the time, grew out my hair, and so forth. Very stereotypical girly things.
