What's your secret

I hate modern music, except the odd band

 

Secrets, hiding who I really am.

 

I've been through more shit than anyone should have to remember. I've started having flashbacks as well.

I've also become dependent on my Elavil just to get through the day.

 

I never let others see through me or let them see the real me.
Life's better that way. It's pretty much like covering your genitalia with a wide semitransparent fig leaf. You let others see through you but not exactly how you suppose to be.

 

I have a major OCD with my appearance, which pretty much is all I care about ... which has messed my life up.. so far ¬_¬

 

I dislike peas, not sure if it's a secret.

and I am a girl, I guess

 

I sometimes wish I never would have left New Orleans and living with my dad, even though that would mean my daughter wouldn't have been born...

 

I doubt whether I'm actually bi, or just confused.

 

I’m a teetotaler however with life being a bitch I might break that vow. Oh, and smoking too. Doesn’t seem too bad. If so many people do it must be okay.

 

Nobody knows who I really am, on EC or in real life. Even the people that know me best are still in the dark about a large chunk of who I am, what I believe, and what I feel.

 

I am amazing.

 

My Secret is : On the outside I seem happy, chill and like I have everything under control. When in reality I feel stressed, and overwhelmed.

 

I'm never quite as strong or perfectly held together as I always make everyone think I am

 

besides the things i lie about here and there to avoid certain obligations that will be forced onto me without it being my choice.. my biggest secret in real life is that i'm gay. i don't think anybody around me knows. everyone except for here thinks that i'm straight. it really sucks that everyone that really knows me is all anticipating me getting a girlfriend, having sex with a woman, getting a girl's phone number so i can go out on a date with her when i'm in the closet.

 

I guess me having ulcerative colitis counts as a secret. You can't really explain it to someone in ten seconds, and you can't really explain it without evoking a "Woah, too much information" response. But you can't illustrate the immense gravity of the situation without explaining it. And suddenly it feels like I'm always being offered sweets, chewing gum, or a cake someone's just made (this is at college), and I'm always having to go "Oh ta, I can't" then having to mumble something about food allergies.

And if I told someone the real reason for my latest UC attack, it would out me.

 

i wish i was a guy all the time... i feel trapped in my own body

 

I'm pretty sure I'm bi, I've been brought up in a.. hmm.. alternative religion, I used to cut myself, etc.
My life is like a labyrinth of secrets to unravel..

 

I try not to make physical contact with girls too often because I feel like they might think that I'm trying to touch them inappropriately (especially with my friends). It's quite a sight, really. I'm constantly on my guard and it makes me seem even more awkward than I already am :/

 

:lol: Does a membership to EC count as my secret? Haha


Okay, so a non-orientation related secret of mine: ...I sometimes hug my pillow at night, and get a heating pad, and pretend it's a person beside me. :icon_redf . . .

Well...maybe that /is/ orientation related..

 

my secret is that im 16 years old and i still can't spell my middle name