What Are You Thinking?

It's been six months today since my dog died I still cry when I think about it all. Not about her, but about how she died and that awful week.

 

(*hug*)

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Considering going back to sleep. Or at least going back to bed. I could lie there for another hour.

 

You better not let us down Weir. You've been struggling, but I still expect at least a T-10 finish from you. You have home field advantage, you're used to this course. I know you have back issues so don't try to out-drive the rest of the field, let your recovery and your putter do the work. We're counting on you. (And if you fail, my new favorite golfer will be like.... Graham DeLaet... or someone...)

In other, non-sport news, I'm freaking hungry and my knees hurt.

 

I'm meeting my bf's son today. I'm a bit nervous.

 

aww good luck. hope it goes well (*hug*)

 

Thanks! I think it will work out fine. He knows about us and is very happy for my bf. He talks to his sisters a lot so he will probally be reporting back to them. :lol:

 

I'm feeling somewhat cheerful right now. My moods have taken on a somewhat predictable pattern; it's kind of weird. In the morning I feel kind of cheerful, I guess because I have hope that the rest of the day won't be too bad. Then once it gets later I start getting gradually less cheerful, and by about 4pm I just feel kind of "meh." And then once it gets to about 8 or 9, the actual serious depression starts to set in and only gets worse until I can finally fall asleep.

I'm not sure why it gets so much worse at night. I guess I just get tired. My body gets tired, my mind gets tired, and my willpower gets tired. I don't have the energy to keep making a conscious effort to be happy. I don't have the energy to keep fighting it.

Right now I feel okay, and hopefully I'll keep feeling okay for a little longer today.

I'm sorry, Maddy. (*hug*)

 

I feel like going to a Chapters and buying some new novels. The only problem is, I don't have any money. This stinks!

 

i've probably never been so happy while paying for a parking ticket.

i've been talking to this super super cute surfer a lot lately, and today right before i was about to ask him, he asked for my number. it probably doesnt mean anything and i'm probably setting myself up for a huge disappointment, but it's a cold cloudy summer day, the waves weren't the best, and i got a parking ticket, but still..

a couple songs that say it better than words
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKh0dLIuIu8[/YOUTUBE]
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ce2KAYV5Pdg[/YOUTUBE]

 

UGH. I hate getting wrong number calls. I get them more often than actual phone calls meant for me. That's horribly sad and pathetic.

Also, I seem to be waking up in the middle of the night covered in sweat more often than usual. Google says that a possible cause is stress. DSJNGHNWEOILHDS

 

Yay! I'm did well at the Football combine. I cut 2 seconds off my 40 yrd sprint. (!) Alas I feel a tinge of sadness knowing it's my last combine ever. v__v

 

I need some ginger ale, and these crackers to taste better than they look

 

I'm wondering where all the blue food is.

 

(*hug*) I hate both of those things as well, you probably just have one of those dumb numbers that's close to something people call a lot.

 

A doctor's office in town is like 1 number away from my house. It's like
if my number was 5555 and his was 5556. Ugh, I hate it.

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In other news, this is post # 100 for me! I would like to thank, *pause for tears* everyone who helped make this possible.

 

Okay. You run the central air when it's 60 degrees outside. But not when it's 100? You stupid little..ugh..

:| My step dad is an idiot. Not looking forward to sitting in a car with him for 12 hours.

 

I should probably get off the computer now and go for a walk or something. My ass has been glued to this chair for like 8 hours now. :\

 

Why am I becoming more and more attracted to Julianne Moore :|

 

i need to make some new friends and try new things.
just need to find a place to start.

 

i think the world has gone mad..

the bbc receiving complaints because syed slammed a Qur'an in frustration .

i thought it was a powerful performance...but people took offence by it >.> people really need to get a life

and then its being reported that bbc has the worst record of correctly portraying gay people saying they are to stereotypical etc.

and the best portrails are emmerdale, hollyoaks and HOW TO LOOK GOOD NAKED !

oh cos Gok Wan portrays no stereotypes

no wonder the worlds all upside down when the people doing these surveys dont even know what a stereotype is..

brilliant stonewall study >.>