I think I'm turning a corner?

I had no idea that I was gay until a couple of weeks ago. But looking back and I can see the signs now. I guess back then I just didn't want to see it. Even now after I cut my hair short my Mom says " I don't want for you to be mistaken for a lesbian." Well news flash! She has no idea. Still working on that. Maybe some day.

 

That must be so hard. It's like she's teasing you or something.

 

Oh man. Close hugs and subsequent avoidance. Are you more embarrassed about your crush or flat out still enamored when you're around her?

 

Not wanting to flog a dead horse, but I have a question, do you have a favourite English word or saying?

 

42 for me. I wish more of you posted pictures so I could put a face to all of you. I am guilty of not doing so as well but might have to fix that.

 

I loved NCIS when Cote de Pablo was in it.

 

I have an image in my head of what you look like and all I can picture is you running the opposite direction with your hands on your head shaking it saying "oh my god I can't stand this anymore!"

 

I have pictures, if you havent seen them

 

I love everything English. I loved Downton Abbey. I'm a tea drinker. Since I'm half Scottish I like Scottish sayings as well. Can't think of an exact saying or word. Always wished I had an Engish accent.

 

Nice pictures!

 

Interesting. I didn't know we could post pictures of ourselves.

So, it's interesting some folks have no idea they are gay their whole lives.

I've always suspected I was gay. Always. Now, fully fantasizing about women. But, still - can't quite get there in my mind. I've come out as gay to several people. Then I think, really??? Am I gay?

Sorry for the incoherent post..,

 

I remember having crushes on girls in middle school. Didn't realize it meant anything, because I had crushes on boys, too. I just thought all girls wanted to kiss other girls, but if they liked boys, they were still straight and dated / married boys. Got married at 21, and I remember the moment I "realized" I was bisexual. We were driving somewhere, kids in the car, I noticed a woman walking by and was immediately attracted and just announced - I'm bisexual. He wasn't surprised at all; said he'd known since high school! Anyway, that was mid / late 20s. I figured it didn't matter at that point because I was married and content, if not happy.

Fast forward 15 or so years, shortly after we both turn 40 and he tells me he's gay. We separated at that point because he was already involved with someone. That was almost three years ago. In that time, I've gone on one date with a man, had a short-term, manipulative, very nearly platonic relationship with a woman, and now I'm involved (very non-platonically!) with an amazing woman.

I personally eschew labels, but I do use bisexual when necessary to be succinct.

 

Yes, I know and I have seen them (hopefully that didn't sound creepy much P). You look so happy where you are on holiday.

 

I agree! I have mental images of everyone based off of the personalities you show here, but that won't help me when we have the big party in New York. Also because deep in my heart I was still holding out hope for L, I posted a picture last night from a Rally I was at a few years ago. I'm telling you @RJay it's good stuff.

January of this year is when I really started allowing myself to accept things. Although, I don't know how I hid it from myself for so long. It has been like an endless game of hide and go seek with my mind.

I am the same here as well. Really, any interaction with women has been awkward with me for as long as I can remember. I had a few very good female best friends, but always found myself jealous whenever they started dating someone. I just thought it was because it meant they would be spending less time with me, but again...I am very good at hiding my true feelings from myself.

 

Where and how do I post a photo? Blog?

 

Lovely photos. I had imagined you with short blond hair!!!!

 

To post pictures go into media -> add media -> and then you will create an album. All pictures will have to be approved by the staff before they show on your profile.

Sorry, I can't help with the blogs.