It's okay to cry and be sensitive, especially if you're going through a lot of stuff. The main thing is you get through it. I think it's better than living in a void. I lost most of my emotions by the time I reached 15 and I didn't regain them until 2 or 3 years ago!
That feeling when you woke up in hell, but will go to sleep tonight in heaven................... I love life.
My day today has mostly consisted of me trying desperately to be sure I'm still friends with two of my closest friends even though there was no reason we wouldn't be friends anymore. INSECURITIES.
That phone is ringing so damn much it's a wonder why I haven't started answering by saying, "What do you want?"
I wish I didn't understand politics, that way I wouldn't care how much we're getting screwed and hated on. Can't wait for the 2018 elections. Hope they prove me wrong.
(internal dialogue before) Ha ha, that's so gay. Wait what? But you're gay. OH YEAH I can't be the only one who does this. :lol:
My emotions are so ridiculously out of whack! How can I cry myself to sleep one night and be completely on fire the next? Life needs to decide whether to be great or awful to me... preferably great.
I feel guilty for my plans. Like I'm betraying my family..... This is not good....they are the ones who don't accept me. Why do I feel like a shady bitch?
Being able to go out clubbing has got to be adulthood's most precious gift. Though my wallet and (still ringing) ears probably disagree with me on that. :lol:
Nothing of my life has meaning, and I don't have genuine meaning and involvement in anyone's life outside my family. Not a word I say, not a thing I do, feels like it has any meaning, or passion, behind it anymore, and no matter what I do, I can't seem to draw any out. I give up. But the worst part of it is, giving up doesn't change anything, and not giving up doesn't change anything. Yet again, something that has no meaning. It's just a vicious cycle. Why would it be any different?
I know I'll regret it, but I want to watch The Boy. I was sold the minute I saw the creepy doll. :eusa_doh:
Not related, but reminds me that I'm a bit curious to see Pride & Prejudice & Zombies.... and I hate anything with zombies.
My best friend, the only friend whom I've came out to, came up to me today and said "You look really manly today." Then hugged me. ;w; I never thought words would be so needed. Made my day. <3