I wonder how the "date" Kaiser was going to have turned out. While I sit here, anxious about what decision my lady will make.
Well that's disturbing! It turns out that a nearby school is putting in an all-gender restroom. Obviously there's a lot of parents that aren't taking it well, but I think it's a great thing to do to help trans students feel more comfortable.
Yes, I must admit I don't see the point of segregation in restrooms. They say it's to prevent rape, but that sounds stupid to me. If a man wants to rape a woman, I'm sure he'd go into the women's restroom. In an an all gender restroom, there would be more people around, making rape less likely. Or so I would have thought. In short, yes, that sounds like a nice idea. And yes, very disturbing. They don't seem to last long, though.
I'm TOO fuckin' SMOOTH! So, J and I go a town over to do some Christmas shopping. The car ride is about 20 minutes, and we discuss the plans for the day. Basically, she's shopping for a few people, and she knows I'm good at "doing things" -- her words, not mine. The only negative thing I can say about the experience is, she was shopping for some of her female friends. I did a fine job handling any sort of dysphoria, but God damn was it hard at times. She went to get her mother a charm for a bracelet, as she does every now and then. As one cashier was talking to J, J made the remark that she'd like a charm bracelet, one day. I could tell by that 'one day', she was having a very semi-sad or wishful thinking moment. So, what do I do? I motion to the second cashier, tell her to get a nice charm bracelet and a charm (a present charm), but to do so stealthily. I make my payment, and tuck the two away -- like a ninja. And we go about finishing up the shopping. As we're riding back, something along the lines of this, is exchanged... Me: What'd you mean back there, about wanting a charm bracelet one day? J: Oh, well, I'd love one. But, that isn't something you buy for yourself. You... kind of get it from somebody, because it means something. Me: Define 'means something'. J: You just sort of know. Me: Kind of like how I know, how you're going to react? J: What? Me: I know, how you are going to react. J: React... to what? Me: *whips out a little box* This. J: What is it?! *realizes she sounds too excited, so looks away* Me: *opens box, it has a $100 bill in it* J: Is that... for me? Me: Not exactly. It's for 'us', because we're going to Red Lobster. So, as we're waiting for our meal, at Red Lobster, she and I begin to talk again, with something like this being exchanged: J: For a second there, I thought you'd... gotten that... Me: The charm bracelet? J: Yeah. Me: Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you. But, I didn't get a charm bracelet. J: Well... this is nice. Thank you. Me: *smiiiiiirks* See, you done got me fucked up. J: Huh? Me: I don't do just nice, I do it right. *slides another box to her, which has the charm bracelet* J: Ooooh, nooooo. I... I caaaan't! Me: Oh, you will... I threw the receipt away. J: I... thaaaaank you!!! About this time, she was blushing like mad. Me: Do I need to call the fire department? Lol. J: What, why? Me: Because you're lookin' kind of hot, right now. J: *cracks up* Oh my God, you're.. terrible! Me: I think you'll change your mind. *slides over the present-shaped charm* J: OHHH MYYYYY GOOOD! By now, she's crying, red in the face. I can tell, she's feeling good. Anyway, we eat our meal, chit-chat about life and love, and leave. And this is where the SECOND best part of the day happened: She held my hand. I've never held anybody's hand, well, not since being a child. I've definitely never held somebody's hand that I like, that's for sure. To some, this may seem insignificant, even silly. But these individuals don't realize, how deprived of any affection I am. To actually hold somebody's hand, to know they want to hold my hand, began to melt the ice off of my heart. I felt... wanted... like I had value... that I mattered. When we departed, she was wearing the charm bracelet I'd got her, while holding onto my hands, and leaning into me. We were quiet for several seconds, until, she looked up, thanked me again... and the BEST part of the day happened: She kissed my cheek. Again, this may seem insignificant. But, to me, it just reinforced the idea that, to somebody, I meant something. After this, we parted ways... but, I think, there is a chance with this young lady, to become more. I am... happy...
I This is why I'm glad my mother doesn't intend to remarry. Speaking of which, I need to remind her and my father to actually divorce. They seem to have forgotten that they're still married.
(*hug*) I'm glad it went well. ---------- Post added 4th Dec 2014 at 10:53 PM ---------- How long has it been? And that is rather funny.
1) I just wanted a quiet day at home. I requested this evening off from work specially to watch Peter Pan. Now my mother has brought her new boyfriend over so they'll be here. :dry: 2) I'm hungry and really have to pee. 3) The double standard with which I'm wrongfully accused of lying, and then find others lying directly to me is disgusting. I'm tired of this. 4) Looks like tonight will be another night where I actually wish I was at work instead of home. Ugh.
Kaiser, that was beautiful (*hug*) You're so nice Anyway, on a side note about me because I'm selfish and all that shit, I actually managed to form tears this time. That's. Not a good thing. Today has been a mostly horrible day.
I've nearly broken down twice, I've felt uncomfortable all day and now I'm essentially despairing. Not sure what is going on with me. Also, my social anxiety has been getting to me, wanted to go and introduce myself to someone and hopefully make a friend, but I didn't have the courage, so that was just amazing.
Three years going on four. They're still formally disentangling shared assets that they informally divided. It's a very cordial relationship for a split couple, but it's a mixture between pathetic, confusing, and amusing that they haven't actually bothered seeing their (shared) solicitor about getting things formally wrapped up. It's odd.
The travel bug strikes again! And I've quite the lengthy and unique list of names to go through: China, India, Thailand, Vietnam, Mongolia, Indonesia, Iran, Turkey, Egypt, Russia, Greece, Hungary, Poland, Romania, England, Germany, Sweden, Costa Rica, Panama, Colombia, Venezuela, Chile, Peru, Canada, to name a few... I'd be lucky (and grateful) to see even a quarter of them. >.>
This is honestly so cute it is disgusting. You sound like the best and worst person to date at the same time. With the twists, puns, and sentimental moments, I wouldn't be able to deal. :lol: What fields are you considering? Where are you aspiring to go with your career?
