Was awkward to be in the same room with the people that knew.. for some days I had to flee and be alone.
I felt a huge doubt. Was I really agender? Or was it simple a rebellion towards my gender assigned at birth?... I waited because I wasn't sure... But I remembered that dysphoria stopped when I realized who I was, and that talking to me as my assigned gender feels just wrong.
I felt relieved, but at the same time still really uneasy around people that knew. Especially family. Everyone was really supportive, which made it easier, but I still felt really nervous and a bit like "why the hell did I just do that", kind of a feeling.
I felt hugely relieved and able to breathe. I can't describe how suffocating it felt to be in the closet and living a lie.
To whom? How I felt varied with who it was. The very first time the main thing I felt was a combination of 'well, that's settled' and being hungry. I hadn't eaten dinner yet. There was some minor concern when I came out to my mom and later my best friend. I figured they would be fine with it but was only really 99.99% sure. But I also knew for certain that I could handle any reaction they might have. With most others, it's been about the same feeling I have when telling someone I like some particular food or the like. Todd
During my coming out absolutely terrified. Afterwards, so relieved, as if a giant weight had finally been lifted off my shoulders
I cried the second time. It doesn't feel real still. ---------- Post added 6th May 2014 at 02:41 PM ---------- This too...
Exceedingly terrified, at first. After about a year it just began to feel very "matter-of-fact," and the only frustrating/annoying thing was when people would be shocked about it.
Gobsmacked when my mum actually ended up asking me and then underwhelmed at how easy it was compared to in my head. Obviously this isn't the case for some people which is unfortunate...