Thanks. I needed that. But my issue isn't that someone doesn't find me attractive, it's that I don't. Unfortunately. I've been out with my friends and they'll tell me some guy is "checking me out" or "he's been looking at you for awhile" and I automatically start making up excuses for why in my head. Like I'll think something like "He wasn't." or "They're wrong and if you go over there, you're going to look foolish." At worse times, I'm just blunt like "Look at him. Look at you. Why would he even be interested?!" I've gotten so used to getting kicked down. I started doing the kicking which is the worse thing you can do to yourself. I hate Damsels in Distress with every bone in my body but when it comes to this, that is exactly what I am. :dry: I just have to figure out how to break that habit which is also ridiculously draining. It's like asking a wooden floor to grow carpet. :lol:
I love that I can post LGBT things on my facebook and not have people attack me anymore (Other than one family member... she has mostly stopped though). I really don't know why I didn't delete those people off of facebook a long time ago. My life is way better without them.
:roflmao: Thank you. --- Yikes! I have to go to work tomorrow. Eh. I'd probably be up this late anyway. Anything past this… C'mon sweet girl! Baby number three! And hopefully no fourth… omg a stink bug just took a ride through my window fan. Gag!
Well, I've got a conference up in Portland I was hoping to try and pass at. Can't get away with it. Oh well. Off to being female again. I've lived eighteen years like this. Guess it won't kill me...
Tonsil stones are the worst. Especially when I can feel them there but can't see them, and can't try getting them out without gagging myself. :C Oh well. Tomorrow I get to see Pain of Salvation in concert, and it is going to be absolutely wonderful in every possible way.
Wondering if every other gay or bi guy in my school likes me. Because seriously I have been getting more than enough of an array of stares, glances, and trying to undress me with there eyes's.
Wondering what the hell was rustling in the bushes last night..my dog was shivering because the back door was open and he was scared (The backyard is fenced in, no other animals getting in), so I had to grab a flashlight and walk out, then I heard rustling in the bushes about 20 feet away from the fence, there was no wind and it was loud rustling, like something big was in there. To be honest, I was more scared than the dog xD
I saw a guy take off his shirt in a clothing shop because the changing rooms were full. I took a few peeks at his body and then quickly walked past him. Now I'm thinking "Am I a perv or should I have looked more?" My stupid mind doesn't know what it wants :lol: