I'm curious: if there was a period when you were in the closet to yourself, what lies did you tell yourself to explain away your feelings? Some of mine: - It's a phase (after more than a decade this wears thin) - I just admire them. I don't *want* them, I want to *be* them - Everyone feels like this towards their own sex; when I eventually become interested in men, it'll be a qualitively different feeling - It's just a "girl crush"
-I'm not homo, because homos are flamboyant, and i am not. -I can be a priest to avoid my homosexuality.
"You can't be gay, NOBODY in the family is" "You're just curious" "It's a phase" Then I started bargaining... :-\
The phase one. I kept telling myself that one day I will fantasize hard enough about girls, and, BAM, attraction will happen.
"Its a phase, in a few years I'll start liking girls." "I'll just live single my whole life and nobody will have to know (I hope this is a lie ^_^)"
-Just a phase / I'll grow out of it -Naaaaawwwwwww I'm not gaaaaayyyyy..... -I am attracted to girls... just not sexually... yet.... ?
Oh yeah I forgot - all girls school for a couple of years, so: - it's cos I don't know any men (which is also a lie, cos I did, and all my friends found guys to date!)
My favorite one was: "I can become attracted to girls anytime I want, I just feel like looking at hot guys at the moment" or "I'm attracted to girls emotionally, and guys sexually, so I can get married and just not have sex that often" and then the cliche: "If I pray hard enough and go to bible camp enough then I'll be attracted to girls" and that's when I learned that half my clergy was openly gay...helped make that one go right away.
I told myself this i dont know how many times a day! I also did the force myself to think i liked girls only to have ever relationship crumble and end in fights.
LOLOLOLOL my favorite was "Im a virgin, once i get laid then everything will be ok and i wont ever think about a guy again." problem was i could never bring myself to have sex with a girl... had plenty of opportunities i just couldnt see myself doing that.
mine was: "It's just a phase. after i get a girl then everything will be fine." or: "There is no way I'm gay. Maybe i'm just losing my mind and going psycho." the second was the one i told my self most often. i don't know why
When I was younger, I was convinced that two women couldn't fall in love. If women kissed or anything it was only so straight guys could get off. So... "That's disgusting. I'm not a lesbian." (Denial, much?) And growing up, crushes were "What guy do you like?" so I never thought of my crushes on girls as anything but wanting friendship. So... "I'm just a late bloomer. I'll like boys eventually." Or since I'm obsessed with people's hair, anytime I'd think a guy's hair was awesome it was "He's so HOT! I can't be a lesbian if I think he's hot."
"I just haven't met the right girl. Some girl is going to come by and she'll be the BESTEST EVA !!!" "Uhm...That porn could be hetero...I'm only attracted to it becuase of the sexual atompshere"
BAM! right there! that was my biggest one! ...only, it was more like 'How can I like guys if I like girls?' I blame that ignorince of mine for half of my insanity, becuse I had no idea that a person could be Bisexual! :lol:
