What are you thinking?

Is my dog making a racket at night because she’s scared or lonely and bored after everyone goes to bed? My mother has been saying she’s been getting up to the dog at night because the dog keeps scratching at the door. Basically teaching the dog if she makes noise someone comes. My mum isn’t here tonight and I’m not playing the dog’s game.

 

Honestly.....Might be sold on walking in the rain.

It's like a soft-reset on the mental health. And ain't too wet/cold post-walk.

 

I’m worried I’m dressing too old. I have a 70 year old aunt who told me she would buy the t shirt I was wearing and my 60 year old mother will gift me things she bought that she likes. I don’t really like what she buys but I’ll wear them unless I outright hate them. So I dress like a 60-70 year old at 31.

 

I love runs in the rain. Even better if it’s cold & miserable. There’s just something about mastering the fear of doing hard & uncomfortable things that “normal” people don’t understand.

 

I'm worn out from yesterday, and my trigeminal neuralgia is going crazy with shooting pains and stabbing sensations around the jaw, but I'm determined to write today. This book will not write itself.

In other news, I am grateful for the sunshine and warmer temperatures we've had so far this October. Winter will soon be upon us, so the longer we have this beautiful weather, the better. I'm not complaining at all. I love this!

 

As a fellow TN sufferer, I’m sincerely sorry to hear that. Hopefully it does react to medication in your case? (If it’s okay to ask, of course)

 

My sleep cycle is getting turned around again no matter how hard I try. The days are getting shorter and I’ve gone over a week without sunlight before.

 

Happy coming out to yall in any or none of the coming out stages

 

What for dinner, what for dinner?

 

Can’t wait for my shift to end so I can hop on my bicycle and take the scenic route home, enjoying the sunset.

 

Ireland and New Zealand tomorrow night promises to be a cracker.

 

Thanks... This crap is awful as you know. It's okay to ask, I'm an open book when it comes to my neuralgia pain. No, I'm not on medications for it. I tried Tegretol a few years ago and the side effects were so severe, my doctor took me off of it. Think suicidal thoughts. I tried other medications, but the same thing happened. My current doctor is looking in to getting me the trigeminal nerve blocks, which are hard to get in my province - only a few people do them. The one specialist I saw for them a couple of years ago refused to give them to me, and bawled me out for over 45 minutes because I was obese. She claimed that if I lost weight, I'd be "cured". I waited three years to get in to see her for the nerve blocks and she was more focused on my weight. I won't go back to her. She's horrible. So we're waiting for me to get into a pain clinic nearby for them, or other pain therapies.

The one anti-depressant I am on is supposed to help with nerve pain but it isn't helping me in that respect, only the depression and anxiety.

I stay home a lot. Writing and my cat help me get through it, and my family knows if I'm laying down due to the pain, it's bad. I rarely lay down even during the worst of it. I hate being idle, even when I can't function.

I do have another kind of neuralgia, occipital - back of the head. I get nerve blocks for it every few months, and it's a huge help. I'm getting my next round early next week.

 

My goodness, I’m so sorry that you’re going trough this!
It seems to often be the case with such disorders, it seems that doctors are keen on finding any possible reason except the actual culprit. I can say from experience that losing weight doesn’t help any, as doesn’t removal of perfectly fine teeth, or most painkillers - both prescription and OTC.

I hope you’ll manage to get blocks sooner than later. Best of luck to you!

 

You could try something diet related to try and reduce inflammation and maybe assist with healing. My boyfriend blew his back out playing rugby many years ago, before I knew him, he couldn't play or train for 18 months, struggled a lot at work (its a physical job) with lots of time off. He tried everything, all the usual physio, osteopaths, massage, chiropractors etc with no luck. Was considering going for surgery but that would have meant he'd never be the same again, and no guarantee of success either. He basically lived on painkillers, a real miserable time for him. He started doing a yoga program and someone there told him to try a strict elimination diet - he basically stopped eating just about everything other than fatty beef, salt & drinking water. No processed food, no oils, no dairy, no vegetables or fruits, no alcohol, no processed carbohydrates, no allergens of any kind. And within a week he was better than he'd been in years, sciatica-like nerve pain reduced and flexibility returning, and after about 6 weeks he was back to normal & healed. He started re-introducing foods individually and worked out that he has a few minor sensitivities but keeping his diet relatively clean most of the time has kept him pretty much pain free for the best part of a decade, while still doing a physically demanding job where picking up aches & strains is normal.

Its a stab in the dark but you'd have nothing to lose by trying something similar.

 

Well that was a good exercise in "how long can I stay on dating apps before I start taking things personally?".

[The answer is about is about a month LOL]

 

I've spent tonight researching gay bars because I'm sick of dating apps, so I feel you on this one!

 

Oh I started taking things personally from the moment I joined one, and I've never stopped

 

Thanks! Yeah, I had to get a couple of bad teeth removed, and it only made things worse. When I had the one on the left taken out a couple of years ago, just biting down on the gauze even a little was excruciating.

This particular "doctor" just hates obese people. I understand she's done it to others who carried even a little bit of extra weight too. I thought about reporting her but they don't consider what she did to me to be "malpractice" or anything I could report to our provincial health board. But I did tell my doctor at the time and it's in my records what this woman did, so everyone knows not to send me back to her, unless I feel comfortable trying it. Thing is, I did not listen to what she told me to do in order to lose weight, etc. I did it on my own with guidance from my family doctor and dietitian, as well as encouragement from friends, family, and others I've talked to online. Losing 50 pounds isn't easy but I did it. My ultimate goal is 100. I'm doing this for me. Not because that idiot woman said I "HAD" to in order to "cure" my TN.

Thanks for the ideas. I've tried the elimination thing, and the only thing it did was take weight off and help the migraines. I eat healthy. Ultra healthy. Tons of vegetables, lean proteins and some carbs, basically what my dietitian told me to eat. I'm diabetic too (Type II) so I have to be careful of what I eat anyway. No junk food. Only healthy fats. No sweets unless they're keto/diabetic friendly and I only eat them rarely.

They don't know what's up with my trigeminal nerve, there is no damage to it and nothing is pressing on it according to the two MRI's I've had. It's just acting up and giving me a ton of pain. TN is one of the zebras that sometimes a lot of the more conventional treatments do not like, and honestly, I wish there was something they could do for my case, other than the darn medications - I'm trying to get OFF of some, I'm on too many now - and the nerve blocks. I'm willing to be down for the count for a few weeks if it was operable, and I hate not being up and on the go, even if it's only puttering around the house or working on the computers.

In other news, I have about 24 hours to go until I get my next round of occipital nerve blocks and I can't wait. The pain from that is so high, it's in orbit around Saturn. There is damage to both greater occipital nerves - childhood injuries to the back of my head and my neck.

I hate cold weather. It makes my neuralgias go bananas.

 

I’m wishing I’d asked the nurse to put the covid booster in the left arm and the flu shot in the right. I sleep on my right side and that arm is pretty sore but my left is fine.