I've discovered lately that i'm bisexual or probably gay - i went for a vacation and met with a man there and i had a great time and i want to go again (i can economically) but i can't have him here as the town is small and i'm afraid, i'm not sure yet, my family is really conservatives (i'm living a small town), generally here everyone is, my friends too. I can't be telling lies about visiting the same city over and over again to my friends - my family lives to another city so it's easier. Lately i really wanted to come out to my friends (2 of my closest), but i'm really scared and i don't want to end up alone with no friends and all this lately made me feel really depressed, i don't even want to eat or do most things i liked. Also i think i knew in the past, just didn't want to acknowledge it, but also never met with a man for more than a hookup and this time it felt completely different
I dunno I never even had a hookup so you've done well and can come out I'm sure since you are brave enough to meet guys so use that to come out
Seems there’s no rush that I can hear. Perhaps spending some time asking questions and seeking advice here in EC might help you work things out. You have time and if you use it wisely it will benefit you. Made a huge difference in my life. There are so many people here who can help. Would it benefit you to take your time?
If they don't know real you it means that you are alone now. It's fiction, it's not real. Maybe it's better to lose something what isn't real to gain new friends and love. You are the most important person, not your friends and family. You deserve to live your life, not their expectations.
If they reject you for sharing with them a part of yourself then they were really never close friends. Agreed My best wishes to you!
