Later in life

Thank you BiTexan62. It’s nice to hear that you agree with me and also nice to hear from a fellow Texan. Especially one that’s near my age. I knew I wasn’t the only Bisexual in the Lone Star State.

 

There’s a lot of us in Texas I’m beginning to realize. Certainly a good thing.

 

Why did you worry it would be noticed or that they were wrong? It's so sad to feel that way about what should be a wonderful thing. Knowing about real gay couples who were respected and part of life growing up just like straight couples would have been nice.

 

I agree with you. It was due to societal conditioning. Eventually I could not bottle it in and then began to see how beautiful it could be but it was quite a process which many others have gone through too. I entirely agree with you that it would have been amazing if we could have felt free to express our true selves from the outset.

 

For sure I'm not blaming you. I was curious how you got the info to understand it right. I thought I was smart, but was not about that and oblivious to stuff others must have picked up on. Maybe someone explained it properly to them or they did research to know what was going on. I feel like I was duped and everyone I knew back then was in on it

 

I had an experience at 16. Neither of us were satisfied. My next experience was 45 years later. He was selfish but I did a fine job taking care of myself.
I have always been aroused by a beautiful body be it male or female. Although happily married I would eagerly have fun with another man but the thought of crime, disease or being outed keep me at home

 

Same here. Used to think I was the only guy with this issue!

 

My first sexual desire was for a guy. I was never attracted to girls. I spent the next 40 years denying this to myself with a very strong degree of suppression. To the point I sometimes would not have any desires for years at a time. But then in the past two years my attraction has overflowed to the point of being out of control. I finally accepted being gay last year. But I decided not to do anything about it. Stay with my wife and just ignore my feelings for guys. That ended last week when I came out to my family. What a mess life is right now. I know it will get better with time. But sheesh what a sh*tshow!