Hey man, glad to know your’re better! i dont think it means that much you know, its so obsessive that its getting intrusive in your head, i can identify with that whenever i watch blowjob i have a feeling in mouth is very weird I think you obsessing so much that your head is intrusively putting it in your head
So I just found out my therapist I had been seeing for a few years left the practice and now I have to go back to my doctor to get a referral to get back into the system again. I don’t want to start over again and go through everything again with a new therapist. This ejaculation thing keeps happening the last week I test think of doing oral to a man and it makes the ejaculation come on faster or easier when I get the sensation in my mouth? How can this be ocd Iv been trying to rationalise it but I can’t it must mean something if it keeps happening? Maybe Iv internalized homophobia or something and I’m not letting myself like it or something like that.
Because you are exhibiting symptoms consistent with OCD, and you aren't actually doing anything about it. The symptoms will continue, and will likely continue to get worse, until you get help. "Doing good for a couple of weeks" is not a sign you have solved the problem. Please get help.