I feel I have been trying to force that I maybe gay. I can back from a trip where I did not mind looking at the ladies, but I did not find any guys that I thought were cute, and i tried, so I figure I am bi or straight. Then I come back and find myself wanting to experience a guy. I even have a thing where when I watch a lesbian scene I think that is nice but i want to experience that with a guy.
As much as I would like to answer this for you, there is no way. I am not you. I know from my experience that it hard sometimes to figure out, but there is nothing that I know of outside of myself/yourself that can make that judgement for me/you. There is such a wide spectrum for each label you mention. I am bisexual, yet there is no defining exact definition in my mind for what is ONLY gay, or straight, or bi. With me it is fluid and not an even 50/50. At one time it may have been. Right now I would put myself at 80/20 gay/straight. Looking back with perfect hindsight, I would say I was around 10/90 gay/straight when I married, but 100% in denial of the same sex attraction side. If a label is important to you and you feel attraction to both, even at different times, then Bisexual works pretty well. The cool thing is these labels do not define you. You define these labels. Since you are in charge, you can change them at anytime you figure out something new or different about yourself. Peace!
I think you're the only one who can give yourself a definitive answer. It's important to know that while you didn't find any guys attractive on your trip, this doesn't mean you aren't attracted to men. After all, you're not attracted to every woman you see either, right? So it works the same way. What does matter is what you're feeling/experiencing: if you've ever been attracted to a specific guy (or guys), and you have a desire to be with another guy, then I think it's safe to say you bear some same-sex attraction. Now whether it's stronger or weaker when compared to your opposite-sex attraction, I can't say; again, that is something only you can work out. Try not to obsess over it, but when you're around other people, gauge your reactions/feelings towards them: do you feel any pull towards a specific person or people? If you do, is it merely aesthetic appeal, or is there a deeper, more physical desire? Basically just take mental notes of how you feel around others, what you fantasize about specifically, that kind of thing--and hopefully with time, you'll have sorted things out. In the meantime, we of EC are happy to help you along your journey.
See that’s the problem there isn’t one answer all answers it’s different for anyone. The key is TIME you won’t know straight away. You might have experiment, you might not who knows but nobody can answer this but you.Sorry if that isn’t the answer you were looking for.
