When I think I get things figured out, I get confused again. I for a long while ID'ed as nonbinary and now I believe I am a guy. Since I was little I saw myself as a boy, but once I learned about nonbinary I ID'ed as that. I don't know if I'm truly nonbinary or if I'm just scared to admit that I'm a boy. I'm scared to transition. I want to do so, I have decided. But, I will most likely get ostracized by my family, as they think trans people are disgusting. I am disabled and cannot fully live independently. So, I feel like I am trapped in a body I don't want.
As of now, I'm non-binary/bigender. My biological sex is female and sometimes (especially if I dress very feminine) I second guess myself and whether I'm just making it all up in my head... and then other times I, for example, I'll see the pronouns he and she together and feel super happy and connected to my bigender identity... Not exactly helpful? But knowing that other people are unsure like I am is nice...
What if there were no consequences? What if you were alone on a desert island and your gender had absolutely no effect on anything? How would you feel most comfortable then?
