What are you thinking?

The one time I actually need to get ahold of my parents, neither of them answer their phones. :dry:

 

Having chronic depression is annoying as hell @god pls slay me already

 

That my roommate and her boyfriend need to get the heck out of the bathroom so I can shower and not be late for my test!

 

I need to get a computer again... typing everything out on smartphone gets annoying.

 

i suffered with suicidal thoughts ever since i was 10. im not going to go as far as saying they are gone for good but as far as right now i couldnt imagine killing my self. my life is far from perfect and there are a lot of things i want. i am afraid i will never find a woman who will accept me and treat me like a woman too. i dont think i will ever beable to tell my parents i am a girl. i tried to tell my mom once but she just kept asking if i was gay and it turned in to a fight. yea it sucks but it really does get better. now instead of looking at what i dont have i find my self looking at the things i do have. i have an amazing friend who has fully accepted me as me. i have a decent job and a good chance at getting full time soon. most importantly while i may not ever tell any one else (unless i get a girl friend) i have finally really truly accepted what i am.

 

Why is it always so hard to find an open outlet in an airport?

 

I need to come up with some sort of snarky response to all the "Happy Easter"'s I'm hearing...going to have to avoid social interaction for the weekend otherwise. :lol:

 

I love radio, I just love it...

 

I feel so worn out.

 

My flight just pulled up to the gate. Boarding is in about 20minutes.

 

Enjoy your flight....if possible!
:icon_bigg

 

New BTBAM track is awesome!

 

I'm thinking this has been a weird but interesting week. One day, out of the blue, I finally understood that "empty and be full" way of thinking that I could never grasp before. By doing that I also became truly comfortable with silence again. Emptiness and silence: the two things that have kicked my butt the hardest lately, and I solved both problems at once. Until the next day when all of that went poof and I felt like crap again. I've been flip flopping like that every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Mehh!

"It's a lot easier, she realized, to be on the verge of something than to actually be it. This would still take time." But being halfway to being at peace is better than being nowhere near that at all.

I'm also thinking I need to read The Book Thief for the millionth time thanks to that quote.

 

been watching the last walking dead before bed, by the way zombie dreams suck.

 

Gawd I hate crushingggg...................

 

:: Squish! ::

 

I missed getting my new binders in the mail by 20 mins. 20 MINS.

Now I have to wait until Monday. Boo.

 

Don't be hatin' and violence-ing 'cause sexy as hell ain't my type. :eusa_hand :icon_cool

 

No offense meant! :lol:

 

...the hell? 'Tis news to me. O:

It's a constant battle with that first part though. My 'f*ck relationships' characteristic keeps getting shoved over by the 'if only...you could probably change that feeling' kinda thing(in relation to the romance bit obviously).

Feels like a civil war goin' on in me brain. ó_ò

Do we need to petition to get 'squishing' added to the emotions here? :surprised

Eta: all of the no offense in the world taken.