There is no question once you experience gay intimacy there is no turning back. Your repression, guilt, reservations will totally disappear. It is such a life changing experience and so fulfilling after years of repression.
I wish there was a way to do that before having sex but the repression keeps me from seeking it out. Even writing it out here makes me feel better though: I want to surrender to my gay self.
You control that surrender, you need to accept your gay self and take the steps necessary to embrace it. This is a journey only you can take. It takes courage for sure however the results are so worth. That will allow you to final experience gay intimacy which I am sure will wash away your repression. It’s in your hands.
This thread is so helpful in my own journey desperately wanting, needing to come to terms that I am gay and fulfilling that long hidden desire for intimacy and sex with other men. Yes I am gay!!
Well done! You get to the stage where you just can no longer ignore the yearning and the desire that you express becomes so strong that you just have to experience intimacy with a man. Once you accept that you are gay you begin to like it too and then there is no looking back.
You are at an important crossroad in your sexual evolution. Finally admitting to yourself that your gay is very powerful. As you embark on your journey towards sexual fulfillment the liberation and freedom you will feel will wash away any doubts about your sexuality. The sexual pleasure will remove any desire to go back. Your gay life awaits you. Exciting, enjoy.
So so true. The erotic sensations and emotional connections from sex with a man for whom you have feelings are astounding, amazing - I had never dreamt that it could be so overwhelming and once you experience this you know that there is no turning back and that your sexuality is forever more secure as a completely gay man.
I so want this to happen to me! I know it will because once I began to even half admit I was gay, my fantasies and desires for men are way stronger than anything i had for women.