Sup guys, how youre doing today? As the title said i am really struggling to accept the fact that i indeed like transwoman porn. I feel very bad because of this, but it is something that really arouses me in porn, i do know that porn doesnt affect our sexuality but it bothers me, i start to think that i am im fact gay because there is a woman with a penis and i get aroused by her, even if i know they are woman and i respect them. But how can i know if i am indeed attracted to them or is just some kind of fetish(which makes me feel even worse) because if i fantasized about them i would probably feel good to, but is it possible that all of this is because of porn? And if i do feel genually attracted to them, how to accept this fact, i will never tell this to a friend of mine because i know they will start to judge and make fun of me and start calling me gay, so i want to hide this just to myself and with you guys because i know you are supportive, so how can i deal with that(i just watched a transsexual porn and i am feeling bad).
Its even easier for me ro masturbate to them now rather just woman with pussies, i get aroused with both but it seems that transsexual its easier, and i dont know if that means something
Maybe the first step would be to learn to accept the fact that women are women, whether cis or trans or outside the cis/trans binary. Being attracted to a woman does not make a man homosexual, regardless of her birth assignment.
I know that woman are woman, and they are very pretty, but something in my mind tells me that the fact that i get aroused looking at a penis(even if its not just the penis itself, is all of her that arouses me) makes me hard so i should get hard looking at males genitalias too, but it doesnt work like that. So i start to have intrusive thoughts about penis and it bothers me even when i am half awake.
I reviewed to make sure. You are currently under treatment and it still has not been that long. Let your meds work and work with your therapist and/or psychiatrist on this. You should really give some thought about what you really think and feel on this subject. Work on it with your professionals if you have to.
Hey! I would like to first let you know i identify as a straight male, I was also struggling with the idea that I was watching trans porn regularly and I would get off easier to them than with regular porn. It was strange to me do to the fact that I actually wanted to perform oral on a trans woman. And it was tearing me apart inside. I didn’t like it but it was what I became aroused to and really enjoyed it in the moment but felt shameful after wards to the point that I got a therapist. I’ve taken the initiative to read a book, Your Brain on Porn, by Gary Wilson. Between my therapist and myself I believe I just got to the point that I built up a tolerance to porn. I even started to venture into gay porn. Wanting to perform oral while watching porn but in real life never had the desire but I felt it tearing me apart asking myself, “am I really gay? Bi? Pansexual?” I decided to take a 90 day break from masturbation and 6 months from porn. It’s been a rough journey but a couple weeks in, but I’ve realized that my fetishes are actually starting to fade. It could just be a fetish or it could be a discovery about myself. But I’m taking the time to sober up from porn and masturbation and see if it’s a tolerance thing or discovery about myself. Remember women are women are women are women. And there’s no shame in liking something you didn’t view right at first, it can be a discovery about yourself. But take an abstinence period. It might be a reboot. Also talk to a therapist who specializes in sexual behavior and problematic sexual behavior. It’s great steps to take! Good luck on your journey
I would also like to clarify what I mean by “regular porn”. Regular porn- referring to regularly watching cis porn, prior to me regularly watching trans porn. I’ll proof read my post next time