Uni just feels so "straight". Why are there no gay guys here for me? It's either really quiet guys or the bro types. It's a sorry situation when my Catholic high school had more gays.
We do have a GSA. It's not just about finding a BF (although it would be awesome if I did) but making friends in general that I can connect with. I've found myself becoming more flamboyant as time has gone on so I'm kinda DQ'ed from being friends with a good chunk of my classes.
I'm tired and it's 4:02 and I can't sleep because I haven't slept in this room in 1 and a half years and I'm confused about my identity and scared at how insignificant I am in the universe and scared about how my parts are dead but I still am alive and have a conscious and it's scary and I'm scared scary yeah.
Funny I was driving to work this morning, and mid traffic i realised how long there has bee signs that i identify as a girl, i can trace back to being 4 years old and being told by my father, you are a boy stop acting like that or ill put you in a dress. now being older i know that i liked playing with dolls and playing house, because thats what girls do and thats what i am
