What did you get? I want to get one too but idk what to get. Something easy to use and hide cause i'm totally closeted. Its just a prosthetic, right, not an stp? I want both at some point. Scared to order tho cause closetted but i've really wanted one for months.
First off, the one I got isn't exactly cheap, however I've been wearing it just about 24/7 besides when I have to clean it, and I do love it. It is just a packer, not an STP, though when I go back to work, I'd love to save my money and get the STP. The one I got is from GenderCat, the cheapest one I could find (about $200 not including shipping), the only thing that is on the package in the item description says "Fashion accessory" or something, so it's totally discreet. Chase Ross has a video of a GenderCat prosthetic, where I heard about this company.
saw my gender therapist again today, i usually go monthly because of the distance, but given that im going full time on april 30, we're going to do bi weekly in case i miss one due to weather. plus i met the new speech pathologist, she's really nice, and we're taking up where i left off with my previous therapist. all looking towards the end of april and beyond, because we recognize that the best way to get my permanent results, and new habitual way of speaking is when i go full time and speaking all the time as a female.
I showed a friend of mine my avatar picture. It's the first time someone who actually knows me has seen my other self and I was worried about showing her. She said something along the lines of I looked ok. She also said about trying longer hair (I so have some longer wigs but no good photos yet) and how she wanted to style them. I was quite happy for the rest of the evening even though I lost a five pound bet.
So, the new semester started two weeks ago. I needed to email my professors anyway(since I missed the first week due to the funeral having me out of town), which I did last week. I also put a paragraph explaining my situation and that I preferred "Brooke" not my birth name(which is on their rosters). Both of them were extremely cool about it and made notes on their rosters. They both call me Brooke, and since I present female in class, none of the class knows, aside from the professor and myself.
I actually came out to one of my friends via text and she didn't reply. Oh well lol. At least I had the courage to do it. And not trans related but my girl has finally messaged me back from the Navy base, I haven't heard from her in two months. Basically, there were technical difficulties, some misunderstandings and a tiny argument regarding that. But we made up and it's all good. We're going the old fashioned route and writing letters now because technology sucks lol.
so i said that i had a great session with my gender therapist yesterday,and i've been processing it since. we were talking about attraction, and experiences. and i told her, my first time saying it out loud, i think i might be Pan? ive felt attraction to more than one person at a time and always told myself i had to choose one or none, but lately im feeling like no, its ok to be open to more than one person at a time. kind of a wow moment for me.
Do you mean polyamorous? Which is essentially openness to being with more than one person at a time/being capable of loving multiple people simultaneously etc. Pan/pansexual is attraction of people regardless of gender, which may have been what you meant, just the following sentences indicated you were talking about being polyam.
yeah, by the time i realized i wasnt as clear as i should have been it was too late to edit. essentially i feel like im Pansexual? maybe and maybe Polyamorous/romantic? just when i thought i had it all worked out i make a bunch of new wrinkles.
It's a crown with a quote from a Neutral Milk Hotel song that says "King of Carrot Flowers". Definitely one that I'll have to explain to people, but that's okay.
I posted this in the 'what are you thinking' thread, but I wanted to post it here as well, since it is kind of a victory to me. I just got asked by a classmate what I was doing after we graduate, and was offered to get an apartment with him. I also got a text from my aunt about what looks like a decent job I could apply for. If I go in this direction, I could save myself the trouble of getting misgendered back in my town and start going by my preferred name and pronouns.
This is more of a huge victory. But yesterday & Friday, I came out to my brother, sister in law & two best friends. Now onto laser therapy
so cool, they took it well? I am guessing....? laser can hurt like hell, especially at first, but so worth it.