I secretly dislike one of my "friends" very much. We used to be close, but she's grown up to be an arrogant, conceited person who feels that she's better than others. She likes to put others down as a way to elevate herself (superiority complex), and she indirectly puts down things that I enjoy, or things that I associate with (passive aggression). When she texts me with some judgemental whining bs, I think about how nice it would be to smack her face off...she needs to learn respect. On a side note, my father hasn't contacted or talked to me in 6 months (since January). He also ignored--or forgot--my birthday back in February. He called me and texted me a few days ago acting like nothing happened, and acting like I'm too busy to communicate with him, when he's the one who ignores me for months at a time. More bs. Overall, I'm kind of sick of a couple people in my life at the moment.
Round 2 with "RBF" last night. It's a wonder I didn't get fired. I swear, if they don't transfer my ass out of this department like they told me they were doing, I'm going to end up getting arrested for assault. I've never seen such a condescending, better-than-thou, piece of trash like her in my life. If she's not talking to me like I'm her fucking dog or one of her children, she's acting like I'm stupid. I get it. You've been here a whopping TWO WEEKS longer than me. That does not make you my boss, it does not make you my superior. When I'm spending my night half-mad with rage and screwing up things I usually know how to do with no problem because you won't leave me the hell alone? I'm telling you, it's a wonder I didn't knock her ass out last night.
I've been planning out this story all week and I think I'll finally start writing it after work today.
*Finally gets the motivation and drive to workout* *Has to stop 20 minutes in because of a random heat rash* Why?
Oh dang, two weeks ago? That's super early! I know how it feels though...I think now that I've gotten over the denial about summer ending, I'm kind of excited to start work and meet my new students haha.
I'm trying to tell myself that I look so grunge with my hair being longer, but it just feels like a mullet in the making and I'm not sexy enough to pull it off like Eugene Porter. So the day I can get it all cut off can't come soon enough.
I'm wondering...why someone can proudly say "i'm a doctor" or "i'm a lawyer" and that's ok, but, when someone says "i'm a researcher/scientist", everybody (in my country at least) thinks that the person is full of him/herself? Meh ;p
I dont really know. A Part of me can only think about sex. Another part can only think about coming out. Then there is the part that can only thionk about the music I am currently listening to. And then there is another part who can only think about wanting a relationship. Also there is a part thinking about my plans for the weekend. As I said. I dont know, Its kinda like all of that at once
I just want to cry lately dealing with my social anxiety issues and loneliness as a whole. I wish I didn't feel ashamed about crying, because there's absolutely nothing wrong about men crying, but the social stigma attached to it is making me feel even more weak, isolated.
Yeah his school is one of those year round schools. So the teachers have 6 weeks off and the kids get 8 weeks off. So once they have fall, winter, and spring break they get 2 weeks off each time.