I GOT A BINDER!!!! Goodbye DDs everytime I look in the mirror (I shall see you only sometimes). Putting it in for the first time was fun to say the least but yay!
Even though I still have to shave, I'm amazed at the confidence boost laser gave me! I'm really happy right now.
Found a gender-neutral variation of my first name I feel comfortable going by. Gave me a huge wave of relief, since I'm feeling especially dysphoric at the moment
looking at possibilities of hair relacement, regrowth...... drugs, Platlet rich blood therapy, transplant..... maybe all 3.
Aha, and another girl is off to the races..... (*hug*) that makes 3 of us all starting around the same time. (&&&)
Well... something strange happened. I was in a crowded post office (already used up all my spoons being in such a large crowd) and someone accidentally bumped into me, and said "sorry young man". It's lucky I was speechless or it would have given everything away (I sound like Bernadette from The Big Bang Theory). I never thought I would want to be referred to as male, but it's so much better than being read as female, and I really liked it.
I fully support this! Shall we change our signatures? I actually don't expect to get anything tomorrow. I'll probably need to go back in a couple of weeks after the labs come in...
I've been passing really well in general for at least a month so that isn't really news. But today while doing laundry, I feel like I hit a new milestone. There's this gas station right across the street from the laundromat that I go to to get change and an energy drink most weeks before I do laundry. I see the same cashier almost every time. I haven't seen him in a while before today, and he called me "brother" twice. Before I always got "hon" or "sweetheart". I've seen this guy a bunch of times. I don't know if he didn't recognize me or what. My voice drop has helped me pass considerably, but this guy called me "brother" on sight alone, and I know he used to call me "sweetheart" before I even opened my mouth before. My appearance has changed very subtly since starting T to the point where I can't put my finger on what it is at all but I'm passing almost 100% now even though I dress exactly the same as before and have the same haircut and everything. A few things have changed, but they're such small changes like thicker neck, fuller eyebrows (they were very full before too though), greasier skin with larger pores, and I do have a hint of stubble after a couple of days with no shaving, but I wouldn't think that would really be visible from across a counter. Also supposedly my face has thinned out a bit even though I've put on over ten pounds, but I can't really tell personally. All I know is that I suddenly look in the mirror and see a dude and so does everyone else, at least strangers. After that confidence boost, I used the men's restroom later for the first time. It was a busy chain store too with multiple stalls so I could've very well seen another dude in there, but I didn't. I just washed my hands actually, but hey, it's a start. My heart was sure racing after, but it wasn't a big deal. I really feel like I belong there now. I would probably freak people out in the ladies room. Before today I hadn't used a public restroom at all in over a month. I rarely need to really, but it'd be nice to be able to at the gym at least. Though, the gym is the one place I'm NOT terribly confident about passing. I look so small next to most of the dudes there and my workout clothes don't provide nearly as much camouflage as my regular winter clothes.
Great, now that's in my head If we all get there before March we totally should I actually had a bit of a setback today Was supposed to get my bloods done this morning but the nurse called in sick, so now I gotta wait until next Thursday
Seen some dude. A small fellow with a pretty high voice and some other signs. Probably a few months on T. He saw me too and we knew what we were. He heard me speaking and looked at me as if he wanted to say: "Dafuq how can you have such a deep voice?".
