So, for years, I've told myself I wasn't attracted to men. For the most part, that's been true. But I'm beginning to think that might have had more to do with the men I've been around. Since my family is very strongly Southern Baptist, and since I've lived most of my life in that sort of traditional environment, most of the men I meet tend to be very masculine. But there have been some guys with a more feminine look that I found attractive. I'm definitely more interested in women than men. Still, even as a teenager, when I believed homosexuality was wrong, I would find myself thinking about guys. Of course, I suppressed it at the time, and told myself it was just passing curiosity. Now, though, I think I may have just tricked myself into thinking that. So, it could just be an occasional attraction that's not strong enough to hold up a long-term relationship. Or it could be that I haven't met enough men with a more androgynous or feminine style. I'm not sure, and I'm confused.
Hey Florestan, I can understand how confusing that can be. Ultimately, only you can know your own sexuality. From the limited information in your post, you sound like you are most likely homosexual, but it is certainly possible that you could be Bi. Perhaps the following YouTube videos can provide you with some more clarity about your sexuality: Are You Bisexual - Quiz (Am I bisexual) How to Tell if You're Bisexual - Is Bisexuality a Choice? I hope that helps...
Figuring out your sexuality is a slow and complicated process. It takes time. You should take things slowly. Just enjoy life in the present. Don't be in a rush. Eventually, life has a way of helping you figure things out. Just give it some time.