People who are close to me and those I work with tell me that I am kind, nice and adorable. I understand these are good attributes but I don't want to hear them. I feel somehow inadequate and embarassed. It is as if I would rather hear them saying I am wicked or horrible. I can't understand what is wrong with me. Is it because these are perceived by me to be 'soft' attributes and thereby 'gay' attributes? Is it shame and internalised homophobia? Or is it just lack of confidence in myself? Or self esteem issues? I should be happy with these descriptions but I am not. I can't train myself to be hard hearted when I am not. It also makes it difficult for me when a guy likes me. I begin to think that he will get fed up of these 'soft' qualities and would want someone with more macho (aggressive) qualities. If he tells me that I am kind that makes me uneasy. Has anyone else been through similar issues?