I'd much rather have this life of chaos and uncertainty where I'm pursuing my needs and my truth, than the empty suffocating life I lived before. But, I'm ready now to get to a more stable point. I'm ready to stop for a minute, get off the ride and be able to just be, just be me, just be out, independent, free, on my own path, living my truth rather than chasing it. I'm almost there. I see it, it's so close but I don't have the luxury of running to the goal, I have to walk, sometimes crawl towards it. I can't speed up certain things. I know when I'm there my journey is not over, and I don't want it to be. But I feel there is contentment, peace, joy and a sense of freedom there. I need that. When is it ever going to be a reality??? Ok, enough moaning. I have several practical things I will make a small tiny step towards today. So, on to that.