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When did you realize?

Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by BothWaysSecret, May 31, 2017.

  1. JaimeGaye

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    Everybody including myself I was not going to be the average boy when I was asked what I wanted to be when I grew up and responded, "I'm going to marry the Lone Ranger and live in a tree house!" :bride_with_veil:
     
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    Started questioning my gender at 12, however that freaked me out at the time so really repressed it. Mostly out of a lack of knoweledge, looking back there were signs before this age though too.

    At 13 I started questioning my sexuality, however it was evident I liked girls beforehand I just didn't really notice, repressed that until around 16 and then started identifying as a lesbian.

    When I was 17 and was finally proud and no longer ashamed about liking women, the questioning of my gender essentially came back with a vengeance, there had been periods before that where it briefly had done as well but I managed to repress it again mostly out of refusing to admit how I felt, even though this resulted in me becoming very depressed.

    Now I'm 18 in 11 days and know I'm a straight trans guy, still somewhat scares me, mostly because I know my mum will not react well, but things finally make sense to me so regardless of her reaction I'll get through it, just got to be me. (That sounds incredibly cliche)
     
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    Tends to be a pretty good sign you aren't straight when you make your fictional/imaginary characters not straight because they are personas of what we want to be.
     
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    I barely knew anything about the lgbt community for most of my life. Due to the negative opinions of my relatives, I mostly ignored my feelings about my identity until about a year ago.. but I still didn't know how to describe it. I recently felt increasingly drawn to the subject of being trans* and transitioning, etc.

    I had to really think at some point, about how I behaved throughout my childhood and the way I viewed myself. Funny thing is I too expressed these ignored emotions through video games and roleplaying lol I have always preferred being referred to as male and felt uncomfortable as a female persona. I even went as far as to creating a masculine alias for years in online games/communities, often shocking people when they recognize my voice as female.

    Just putting two and two together, it was obvious.. It took a while to fully accept it, but once I was able to actually vocalize these feelings properly, I felt like a ton of weight was lifted. It's still difficult to talk about it at times. I'm currently 23.
     
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    I was around 13 or 14? Depressing to think I'm still barely out 7 years later.
     
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    I was always really fascinated by LGBT culture/people in general as kid, but I was taught that only "abnormal" people aren't hetero. So like the rest of my family I assumed that LGBT people only exist on tv, in movies, and far outside of my "normal" family or life. It's sad but thankfully I'm more informed now.
     
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    winter of last year.
     
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    five or four years back (at the age of 30). Hard to say more precisely because it was always somehow here.
     
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    I think that I always knew, but really realised that I was gay when I was 12
     
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    I realised I was queer when i was 13 and I realised I was gay at 14.
     
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    I've always had a fascination with women since I was a child. The realization of my love of women didn't hit me until last year at age 24.
     
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    I realised only recently...but all through Highschool I kind of knew I was bi. I started watching more gay porn...but pushed it aside as just wanting to see something new. But just recently (past few weeks) I have admitted to myself that I am Bisexual very weird/hard feelings right now.
     
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    About 2 years ago, when I saw breasts and got sexually aroused. All the signs had been there for years and years, but I was too dense and that was the final clue lol
     
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    I think I was 10 or 11 years old when my classmates started teasing me as a tomboy after being so physically close with my girl best friend then. I never had a crush with any girls prior to that and didn't know anything. Years after, I realized I'm bi, but after being married and all, at 33, I'm convinced I like girls more.
     
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    I noticed I was attracted to girls at like 9 years old, but I took it as admiration. The thing that made it sink in - Salma Hayek in "From Dusk Till Dawn". Youtube it. Something happened in my pants and I came out a few months later.
     
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    last year at age 16, Its a wonder I didn't realize I was gay sooner what with all the signs along the way
     
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    I think maybe around age 13 or so but I was in denial about it for a little while.
     
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    I was thirteen when I realized I was gay
     
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    I first started realizing my orientation when I started questioning my gender (about 4 years ago). As a kid, I wasn't interested in neither boys or girls so I never thought about it at the time. Though there were signs when I was a teenager that I was interested in women more than men, but I guess I kind of repressed it or never clued in at the time.
     
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    I knew I was different from other boys growing up, but couldn't put my finger on it. I always found myself more drawn to the male characters in the video games I played and the Anime I watched as a kid. Fast forward to middle school, when most boys start showing romantic interest in girls. Not me. I thought girls were, at most, interesting because they were very different from boys, but I never developed any attraction to them.

    Then it dawned on me during high school when I developed an undeniable attraction to one of the guys on the football team. He and I never talked as we didn't hang in the same social circles, but whenever I saw him in the halls my heart would skip beats and I would get awkward as heck. The dots connected and I thought, "Well hell, guess I'm gay."
     
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