Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by BookWriter1994, Sep 5, 2016.
I just want a boyfriend to cuddle and watch Jurassic park, Ha! I made it nerdy
I don't think I have been true to anyone about anything for a long time.
Too much of a people pleaser.
My thoughts. And also, I like yaoi. (Gay anime love)
I'm not telling my parents probably ever because I can't tell their reaction, they've never talked about LGBT to me personally. All I ever heard my grandmother ever say was that trans people are disgusting and "I'd never want my child to be like them".
Everyone thinks I'm the innocent one. I'm not...
The identity of the person I lost my virginity to. I was 13 when that happened, and I sure regret it.
That I'm really batman.
I'd say a lot of the thoughts I think and feelings I feel are super private.
Mostly who I am. I don't have any friends really so most people don't know anything about the real me. They only see the "work" me.
All of the sex toys I have..only my ex and one other person know.
I keep a journal. Some of the things, thoughts and wishes I put in there are very private.
My journal has everything about me in it. It's pretty secure on my computer. If you want to know the real me, then read it.
All of my story/character notes and ideas. Nobody will ever see them.
I act like a funny man, always cracking jokes 24/7, but its actually to cover for the fact that i have no idea what to say and im nervous. that and im completely alone most of the time (90% of the time anyways, classes are the 10%.....maybe family too).
oh that and my phone and computer, they contain um....messages to a certain someone im not meant to know (hehehe a secret relationship perhaps...but ill never tell)
My old cutting scars. They're not on my forearm area so thankfully I can convincingly lie about them on the rare occasion someone asks about em. I've been pretty selective, even still, about who I let know about them.
The box my vibrator came in, I have no idea where the vibrator it's self is.
The life I want for myself is my most private thing, not one person knows it.
If I put my most private thing on a public online forum then it wouldn't exactly be private any more.
The most private thing that I am willing to admit is that I have an addiction to gambling. I haven't gambled in seven months though and I attend meetings.
I try not to keep secrets but I do have things I don't tell everyone about. Like I'm interested in women but I've never been in a relationship with one yet. I've only been in two relationships with two guys but they were not successful.
My secret? I'm suffering from the curse / extreme bad luck that all people I fell in love with during the last 7 years were either lesbian girls or straight guys (bad bad luck for an amab bisexual).
And some idiots still think it would be so much easier to find a loving partner for bisexuals like me ... :bang:
I absolutely hate that whenever I talk about my mom's death or post about it on social media people immediately assume I'm upset. So I tend not to do it. Afterall it's a pretty shitty thing to get angry with people who genuinely care about me, trying to help me, just because they don't understand it. So, I keep all my thoughts and feelings about it tightly bunched up and only let go with my sister.
Pro-tip to anyone with friends who've lost a parent. They will always feel that lose. That doesn't mean that everytime they bring it up, it's a cry for help. We can talk about lose without it hurting.