What are you thinking?

So sick of being angry and being able to do nothing to stop it. Tired of being set off by anything and everything. I'm just angry all the time. Swear my damn heart's just going to give out from all the rage.

 

Just gotta keep persevering; you're almost to the end, then you can have some time off to decompress :dead:

 

Gotta love random weight spikes. Seeing I jumped back to 137 isn't what I wanted to be aware of.

 

I feel nothing

 

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Watching Celine Dion KILL IT!!!!!

 

Good news first: I passed the ASVAB.. Like, I thought what they gave me was practice but it turns out it was the real thing.. Just.. wow.. I wasn't expecting that. Especially since my sister that went into the marines took a few months to study for that thing..
Man, I got so many choices for an MOS.. decisions decisions..

Bad news next : A bit disappointed about having to bunk with the girls in boot camp and I have to get off hormones too.. Was told I can't be on them then, but once I graduate boot camp and get assigned a base I may go back on them... Since I am still legally female and would need my ovaries taken out in order to change my gender marker, I got to enter in as female.. And can't get any surgeries done prior to going in, so hello to all the vaginas I'll be bunking with lmao.

 

I'm in a great mood today cause i got a good review at work yesterday! :icon_bigg The (basically) assistant front end supervisor and the regular security girl (former front end supervisor) appear to be working together to do reviews every couple weeks, pretty much. The company tracks every keystroke you make, pretty much, and they review what numbers the computer had you in the red for versus what they noticed watching you - what they liked, what you can work on, tips and advice, etc. What has me really happy is that apparently they're recommending me to be a cashier to train new kids. They've given me new kids to train before but this is the first time its been put in a review that they think i'd be a great ('regular' i guess) to train new kids.

My numbers might not always be good and i might readily admit to being moody at times cause i'm emotional...but i know what i'm doing and apparently they noticed that. I bet the opinion of other cashiers was noticed too...lots of times other cashiers, somewhat experienced ones, will ask me for help with something, or most often for a number for a produce item cause i have most of them memorized. Somehow memorizing the PLU's comes easy to me. I'm fine with just being a cashier though, i'm glad nobody's asked me to move up. I don't have the personality for it - i may as well have c-ptsd with how bad angry customers scare me. I couldn't possibly handle dealing with them as a regular part of my job if they wanted me to be a customer service associate or a front end supervisor.

 

Well I live so hooray!

Also I forgot to write my homework goddamn it :/

 

I guess I'm feeling slightly better. It only hurts when I move.

 

I wish you a speedy recovery D;

 

Starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel! Just have to complete my last TPA (Teacher Performance Assessment), and then I can apply for my credential and move on with my life! Time to start focusing more on myself

 

Do they sell digestive systems at Target? I need a new one ASAP.

 

Almost 2 years of sobriety over, I'm surprised I lasted this long lol

 

Thinking about the eternal war of two sets of fanboys going at it incessantly whenever they get the chance, even if it's nothing to do with either of their respective fanboy objects. This is why everyone else hates all of you.

 

My "sweet" elderly aunt is cheering and raving on Facebook about her grandson getting married and I see all the pretty pictures... and that's great. But then, she refused to go to her granddaughter's wedding because she's gay.
I keep thinking how painful that must be. Why is our family against love? Those are NOT acceptable morals! :[ The world is backwards.

 

Holding back on the pithiness (or is that the right word?) with religion threads, so difficult...



Also I'm addicted to this song now.

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<3 David Draiman ❤

 

how happy I am that I talked to a girl who could definitely become a very very good friend!!! she's so nice, and I can't wait to become friends with such a cool person

 

My brain is so freaking weird. It chooses to retain all the odd information but not the stuff I'm supposed to know. I can name all five families of the American mafia but can't remember my social security number. I know the names of every mech in a game I last played when I was twelve, but I have to look at my ID to remember my zip code.