What are you thinking?

Nutella
Ho Hos

 

I have a pimple and it hurtssss.. I never had a pimple that actually hurt before .. normally just the white heads that some rubbing alcohol on a cotton ball usually helped take away. :icon_sad:

 

Hmph?!

My brother, he gets a lot of small ones, while my face is usually more-or-less clear and smooth, but will occasionally get these huge, painful ones that grow beneath the skin and take weeks to go away. That's ignoring potential scarring...

 

Mine isn't huge but it's red with a little yellow dot in the middle. I definitely do not want to pop it. I tried rubbing alcohol on it like I would with any other, but the irritation still remains.

ignoring potential scarring? Like, you'd pop yours?._. If so, that's not good for you or your skin D:

 

I used to, when that was possible (and feasible)! Now? Forget it. They're too hard, so I put some strong medication my doctor gave me, until they dry up. At some point, they get soft and fragile, and sometimes "break" and start leaking just from turning over them while in bed. *shrugs* Sometimes I'll accidentally scratch or wipe a part of my face, while forgetting they're there, and yeah...

https://www.google.com/search?q=nodular+acne&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwi22pX77frTAhVU8GMKHVfGDcoQ_AUIBigB&biw=1920&bih=964#tbm=isch&q=nodular+cystic+acne&spf=1495159182585

 

Honestly. what was I thinking? I can't do sprints at the track meet! I only got third because of how the event was set up, I'm probably one of the slowest of my age around here. Why did I say I would do it? Was 400m not enough?

 

I get to view the place tomorrow. I reallt hope that this works out. I really want to get out of this hotel and have a place to live.

 

My family is getting a professional photo taken tomorrow, and I really don't want to be in it, but I have no choice. Just thinking about it is making me nervous and uncomfortable.

 

I'm seriously considering driving over 600 miles to Utah for a heavy metal show.

 

I dreamed that I forgot my textbooks, then a famous YouTuber was directing an action film and he wanted me to be an actor in it. For some weird reason I was pointing a handgun at him and saying I'd agree to work with him under three conditions. One being my character must be gender neutral. Two being you must show me what you've already filmed. And three being you must build me this robot I designed

 

Oh, what's the show? I may be a couple hundred miles closer...

 

I used to be the same way. Try wearing a favorite outfit, that normally helps me a little when I know I am going to have to be in a picture. Do your hair the way you want.. Wear your favorite shoes or something.. And try standing next to your favorite family member whoever it may be. All of it together can help you remain calm and possibly comfortable.

 

Yeah I'm too invested in erotica stories. Good thing I took a break from it.

 

Can we fast forward to 11 pm so I can just go to bed?

 

I'm finding out now that my sister has been avoiding going to school because some low life shit stain to society has been bullying her and possibly a few others for over a month. Oh, man. As someone who has been bullied and hazed growing up, I'm not taking that shit our the pacifist high road like I was raised. Honestly, that prick better hope there's a god because they're going to need to pray fucking hard to hope I don't reign a fist down on their ass....over and over.

 

I get to view the place at 2pm today. I'm really hoping that this will work out!

 

Reality is bizarre.

 

I just realized I talk vaguely like a fucking mafia wise guy. No wonder a guy back in college asked me if I was from Brooklyn. I've lived in Michigan my whole life. Where the hell did I pick this up?

 

Thanks for the advice I'll give it a try.

 

I am making something happen on this novel tonight, even if I have to get hammered to do so. I haven't come up with any meaningful progress on it in a month. And that's terrible.