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What are you thinking?

Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by Mirko, Feb 28, 2017.

  1. RawringSnake

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    I'm doing so much better already.
     
  2. Mirko

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    It doesn't sound like you are having a healthy relationship with your boyfriend at this point any longer. While you might be having shame, or not feel worthy enough of another (better) relationship, you can work on it. As you do, you might find that the person with whom it works out, or you feel a better connection with, is closer than it might seem.
     
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    Is this the horniness I was told about
     
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    I don't take any opportunities, do I?
     
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    This morning was fun. Now to get the computer to work....
     
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    If you are the kind of person that ends every message with ":slight_smile:" "^^" or "xD" I secretly suspect you of being a sociopath.
     
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    I do it because I worry I'll come across as [insert negative trait or emotion] if I don't :slight_smile: Loll
     
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    I don't know. I know that our relationship is unhealthy but i still think maybe i can fix things somehow. I've been with him on-and-off for a couple years now. We don't have a connection issue, i love him, i'm just sick and tired of his games, his cheating, his constant attacks on my self esteem, his 'walking all over me'.... I wish he'd love me normally, but it's clear that he doesnt care at all :frowning2: only keeps me around because he knows im too 'chicken' to leave. The last time i got mad enough to leave, he came back with some grand crap about how he's ''changed'' and how much he loves me and he won't hurt me again. So i dunno, maybe he'll do that again and actually change and stick to his promises this time. Or he should leave me, if he really doesn't want me.

    Trust me, he's a sweetheart, he just needs to open his heart more . Theres no guys on earth for me other than him, i'll never find a new relationship because i am unlovable. And he says that he wants to make it work because he loves me, so i suppose it will get better in time.
     
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    It really hurts when the day has been going so well...and then the realizations happen.

    The bad kind.

    There's something missing, and I just don't know what I can do about it...

    ...Nothing right now..

    It's a miracle that I've never been suicidal.
     
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    I have no idea what to do about my problems, but they hurt too much to ignore.
     
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    Aight, I'll leave you off the hook, but I'm watching :eye:
     
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    You are not unlovable. In so many ways it seems he has some hold over you, to the point where you were willing to give him another chance even though he didn't deserve it.

    If you think about what he has done, I wouldn't be surprised if your self-esteem has been impacted by it.

    You are worthy of love and having a healthy connection, relationship. Don't be afraid to stand up for yourself. It can be scary but it will possibly restore some of your confidence, belief in yourself.
     
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    I’m sorry you’re feel this way. Do you have anyone you can talk it through with? If not, it might help to get it all out on here.
     
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    Yes, I do have people to talk about it to, but it might be better to talk about it online.
    It's really awkward talking about problems irl...especially because of how unusual my problems are in the first place.
     
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    That’s understandable. I suffer from anxiety, which whilst I know is not that unusual, it made me feel very unusual and it was hard to even talk to my therapist about it.

    Maybe talking online will be easier to begin with? It might help you to clarify what you’re thinking and feeling.

    Do you have access to any counselling services? Maybe at school?
     
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    Yeah, it will. I'll do that. I already do kinda talk about some stuff with some online friends, but not much.

    And no. I'm actually homeschooled.
     
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    I’m glad you have some friends to talk to. Start there and hopefully it will help. Opening up can be really hard when we’re not used to it.
     
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    It really can...
     
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    I need a change
     
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    Music is magical.

    I LOVE MUSIC.
     
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    First snowfall that has stuck to the ground. The changing of seasons always makes me so happy. Not necessarily because I like the season, but I just LOVE change of scenery <3