Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by Mirko, Feb 28, 2017.
This reminded me of this:
Totally agreed with those who say that doing work online isn't feasible. I need to be physically there, I can't learn at home, too many distractions. If I ever need to get work done at home, I always do it after 10pm since parents will be sleeping but that's hardly healthy.
On another note - can certain individuals in the world be reminded that homophobic slurs are not at all amusing? I don't know how long this lockdown is going to actually last but I don't want to be stuck in my house for long with people if they are going to use homophobic language and pass it off as "humour".
I can’t really do my classes online either. I mean we could do dictation, but we can’t test online for our program because there’s no way to prove that we aren’t cheating and did our test in a 75 minutes controlled time.
Yeah, it's true that people can cheat. We're doing the tests online and they do have a time limit but there is no evidence to prove that people aren't cheating so it's really a waste of time.
At least they’re letting you test. They probably won’t even let us.
Google the proctoring program "Honorlock"
It's extremely frustrating and evil, but most universities including mine are using it for tests now with no in-person testing centers available.
It basically stalks the crap out of you while you're taking the test. You're on video, it tracks where your eyes move, your browser is locked so you can't click off the screen, it monitors all devices on the network so if someone else in the same house is using a computer it's going to spy on them too, it somehow knows what you're doing on your phone even if it's not connected to the network, and it makes you carry the computer around the room showing the camera every inch of your room so they can see there's not someone like, hiding in your bed reading you answers or something. Oh and they keep the video of you forever, then sell it to third party advertisers for marketing research to see what products you have in your room.
I hate it. So much. The pain of trying to take an advanced physics test where we're allowed to have calculators, but every time I look down to use my calculator it screams at me that it's going to fail me if my eyes don't move back to the screen....ugh.....
Videocall-jackbox with my friends was surprisingly fun
Stepping away from my friend group (boyfriend included) for a while.
The change of supportive, healing environment to one that feels self-centered and inattentive was driving me mad and causing me to behaviorally respond in a way I was not proud of either, so I announced my hiatus.
I keep going back and fourth with my feelings about it, and the events leading up to it. But that's okay, as that's what I'm taking this break for.
To have time to figure things out, regain myself, and balance myself out again. I really need it.
I'm trying not to let the upset feelings and bitterness, worry and stress of it get to me; but instead, relax.
It's thankfully a reprieve in a way, though. I can feel the peace and contentedness with this decision.
I haven't had time to myself in a long time. I made such an effort to open up.
But lately, that effort has been ignored, even despite previous encouragement to get here in the first place.
So it's time to take this opportunity for alone-time and recharging.
I only hope that, for however long I'm away, they fair well. And when I come back, I hope that maybe things are a bit better for everyone.
I really need to start dating when we are finally finished with Corona.
I think that we all need something to look forward to once this is done, but on a personal level, I would hate to turn 20 (my 20's are very near) without at least dipping my toe in the water.
Are apps necessary or can I find success without them? (I hate the idea of judging someone based on a picture, many are better looking in person not to mention that you can gage if there is any chemistry in person).
There are now 3 confirmed cases of Coronavirus in my county. This shit is crazy.
People are successful without apps too. Of course, it means having to be out there as it were, joining activities, going to places where LGBTQ+ folks hang out or finding a social activity that includes gay teens or youth. If you are comfortable with joining LGBTQ+ social activities in town or nearby, I think you would be set then. It might take some efforts, but it is doable.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't the LGBT youth groups for much younger teens than me? At 18, I'm probably too old to hang out there, not to mention that I have a rule of not dating under 18's or anyone in school. I'll have a look for things that cater to guys in the 18-20 age range.
The definition of 'youth' usually ranges between the ages of 18 and 24. In some cases, it is also defined as being between 19 and 30 or even with a slightly larger range. It's possible that Scotland has a slightly different definition.
Try Front Runners.
It's a running club for LGBT people that's international and due to the nature of it being physical activity, there are always lots of attractive and athletic guys in their teens and 20's in it. I'm in it for my city, and there's about 8 of us age 18-25. This is a small city, since Glasgow is huge there will certainly be a lot more there. A decent amount of old guys are usually in it too, but it kinda evens it.
Here's the one in your area: http://glasgowfrontrunners.org/
Plants make me so happy. Attempted propagating some geraniums a few weeks ago and just potted them. Too bad my only option was the soil from the garage. My plant bench officially has no room.
You never swim on the same river twice...
Being stuck in my house with someone who I really struggle to get on with is far worse than the lockdown itself, especially since this person seems to have a vendetta against LGBT people and basically anyone who differs from him.
I've always been an overthinker.
I've had depression, high stress and anxiety, chronic tiredness, for ages now.
Now that I've been having this brain fog for a couple to few months on top of it all...
If I've ever thought I felt like a zombie before, now I really know how it feels like.
I'd rather overthink than have this brain fog. Why is it suddenly here like this? What changed?o
Gods, please, I hope it goes away soon. I want my thoughts and mental clarity back. Please.