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What are you thinking?

Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by Mirko, Feb 28, 2017.

  1. Andrew99

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    Thanks it went well.
     
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    I wish I felt happy. Not distracted. Happy.
     
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    Tonight I'm depressed. The past few days I've been looking back on the last few years of my life and what my bipolar disorder has cost me. It cost me a fair amount of money, as when I'm on a high swing, I tend to spend money. My freshman year of college I once spent almost $500 in two weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas when I came home from school.

    Then this damn disorder has cost me friends. Last summer I lost a friend when I was in a mixed episode and I did something so stupid that I never would have done normally and I lost a good friend over it. That was part of what led me to realize that I had bipolar and not just depression.

    I'm glad I've gotten the help and the medication I need, but damn it, I keep wanting to go back and fix things I can't fix. I keep trying to undo the damage I caused, but it's obviously useless. That one person still wants nothing to do with me and it kills me to think about. I seriously wish I could fix it, say "I'm better now and that wasn't me!" but it has always since and always will fall on willingly deaf ears.

    I wish you could medicate away past damage like you can the symptoms of a disorder.
     
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    My bf and I share a lot together, which is usually awesome, but we could do without the stomach bug we are currently sharing. Bring me all the Advil and PowerAde!
     
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    Thank youu
     
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    Just started watching Atypical and oh my god...it's so cringy at some points but so interesting
     
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    *siiggghhh* same.
     
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    What am I thinking? Too much. So much I don't even know what I'm thinking. That's what I'm thinking
     
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    I think I might make a road trip to Kalamazoo on Monday while my parents are gone.
     
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    That I'm starting college soon....so I need to get prepared.
     
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    Same.
     
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    Same, even though in some ways I'm glad to be returning to school for having a routine again but I'm super anxious thinking about it.
     
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    I can pick up my A Level results tomorrow, currently about 10 hours from now. I'm so nervous about how I've done, hoping they're okay though.
     
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    First lesson learned at college: I do not understand people my age.
     
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    I have a week long camping class in a week and a half.

    The problems:
    No friends in the class.
    No service service where we're going. Which means no internet, no talking to friends (either online or irl), and no talking to the guy I like.
    Trying to go a full week without being super depressed/breaking down.
    And just looked at the class list. And there is only one other guy in the class, so that means I'm sharing whatever I have to share with that one stranger.

    These are all non-issues, but jhbcjhdchj, I'm anxious af.
     
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    Good luck to those of you starting college this year :slight_smile:
     
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    Anxiety and feeling depressed are taking turns being the heavier ones on the teeter-toter.
     
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    That's my life everyday.
     
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    Text books I need to order. I should stop procrastinating so the thought stops nagging at the back of my head.
     
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    As I was getting off work, I received an email from a company I applied to regarding my application. I seem like a good fit and they're fixing to send me a short "homework" assignment as part of the interview process. I thought I was done with homework