What are you thinking?

Oh my gosh lol.

 

Its flipping July and I live in tornado alley. Is it too much to ask for one thunderstorm to fall asleep too at night? (It has not rained here in over a month )

 

Good Lord help, pretty sure my mom thinks I'm dating my only friend. Which would be fine if she acted normal about it lol.

 

Today's going by much faster than I can handle. It's almost 5:00 pm and I have not been productive with moving at all. Procrastination at its finest.

 

Just enjoying my vacation.

 

I just heard some "gun shots sound" again.. crazy neighborhood. i hope no bullets on my roof!!! or maybe it was just neighbor's tv

 

Today was my first day back to work after vacation. It was not too bad. I just have some new faces that I need to learn the names of.

 

Wooooooo, I got a few more pages done on my story! I mean, it wasn't as much as I wanted to get done, and I've kind of hit a brick wall in the last half-hour, but it's something and it might just serve as a springboard to anything else that could end up happening later on.

(Totally unrelated note, but I went to town earlier to get a pair of boots for work and the only good pair was eighty bucks and I only had seventy. Just a small thing that annoyed me. I'm going back for them next week, though, because they're kick-ass boots and because I'm going to need a good pair for this job, if I'm expected to be on my feet for eight hours every night.)

 

So fucking anxious today and I don't even know why.

 

That "what are you thinking" reminds me a lot of facebook, that blank space you have to fill when you write a post there.
Due to the filter bubble, face became so boring… Also now, I don't know why, I'm more sensitive to that sense of failure people feel when they see other people's achievements on socials… because people show their best selves on socials, but know the worst only of themselves. It's 2 in the morning, I don't know if I wrote something clear.

 

Did I spend the last half hour memorizing Japanese swear words? Maybe.

 

Are you preparing for a battle? lol

 

Flying on a plane tomorrow...I'm excited for traveling, but I'm super anxious to be flying, and I can't sleep at all.

 

Where are you heading? Happy safe travels!

 

I'm feeling the same way, only for me it's surgery tomorrow and not flying.

I'm also wondering why the hell my brother is watching soap operas.

 

I hope your surgery goes well and your recovery too!

 

So last night I found out that numerous people have been asking my best friend if I'm gay. Kinda amusing lol

 

I hate it when gay culture is watered down for mainstream appeal.

 

I am thinking that I would like to post on this forum more but I get so anxious that I can't.

 

I found a sort of hair loss support subreddit, and I shared some pictures of what the top of my head looks like to see if anyone thinks I'm truly thinning or balding. Someone said I am, so this makes five people who say my hair looks like its thinning, and I have no clue what the hell I'm going to do. Someone said shorter hair usually looks better on those who are thinning, but then I worry the spots will be even more noticeable and that it won't suit my face shape. So...what the fuck do I do?