What are you thinking?

I know that feel. It reminds me of one of my characters for my graphic novel, a nerdy guy with anger issues of his own, who tends to blow up at the drop of a hat. I haven't figured out how he deals with it, though as of writing this, I think I might have just thought of a decent idea for that piece of the story, at least for now. Personally, I've tried so many tactics to deal with my anger, none of which seem to work for me, though, except one. When I get angry, I try to think of the one I love, and remind myself that she doesn't like it when I get that way. I don't know if it'll work for anyone else, but it is the only effective way of coping with my anger issues that works for me.

 

Today feels like a Sunday even though it's a Saturday.

 

I'm surprised listening to my blues playlist actually got me in a good mood.

 

I don't know, what am I thinking? Because I just finished my first day of lifting, and holy balls, my arms feel like wet spaghetti noodles. And I have to do this for months or even years to actually develop a halfway decent physique? :bang:

 

I've got some leftovers. Should I set out a plate for you?

 

The way I know it's Sunday is when it's been seven days since I last gave my doll a bath in the sink, except for this time, where it's 14 days, since I forgot for once to do so last Sunday. I hate being forgetful. :lol:

 

Ouch. Nashville hot chicken is very hot, even despite my high spice tolerance. So much heartburn!

 

True. Maybe it is childish to chase someone, with a shopping trolley, because they ran their trolley wheel into the back of one of your heels. It seems that an apology is too much to ask for sometimes. At least it seems hilarious in hindsight lol

Some songs irritate me (almost feels like my head hurts) so much that I leave or turn the radio off and try to reason with the person who is saying "Hey! I was listening to that!"

I use many methods that help to deal with my anger. One is writing out everything that should happen to the person that got on my bad side, and then burning/shredding the paper. Still, it seems that little can prepare you for the burning anger you feel right when some incidents occur. Anyway, it's good that she helps you like that.

 

I just slammed down two big bowls of beef and rice not even an hour ago, and I'm still friggin' hungry. I don't know if it's from the T or if it's my meds, but this sucks feeling the need to eat everything in sight again.

 

Nothing like having the house to myself and a pint of vodka!

 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Everyone that has me on Snapchat must hate me right now and I'm loving it!

 

I have the exact opposite problem with my medication, where I can barely get myself to eat a quesadilla every night for dinner, and I haven't had lunch in at least a couple of years. The weird thing, my body doesn't mind it, nor do I lose any weight.

 

This situation with my roommate is becoming quite a problem actually. We do very intimate things for people who are just supposed to be friends. Like I shaved his head in the shower, and now we shower together sometimes. We've made out, we cuddle most nights and so on. Some sexual things but not a lot. He has a girlfriend who I think is very clingy and desperate, and more than that she's very possessive. I don't think she knows what has been happening, but when she comes over there is noticeable tension between us. He called me his 'BFF' jokingly once in front of her and she got very salty over it. This whole situation is very fucked up honestly, and wrong, but at the same time I really like it and I don't want it to stop. I think I might be developing feelings for him and I hate that.

 

I give my dog and cat a weekly bowl of milk on Sunday. I forgot for 4 weeks in a row but I've remembered the last 2 weeks and tomorrow is there day. Hope I don't forget.

 

Where are they all coming from?

IT IS RAINING SPIDERS IN MY ROOM. I think an egg sac hatched somewhere, because tiny baby spiders keep coming down on webs within arm's reach of me; one every half hour or so for about the last eight hours. I'm not afraid of spiders, haven't been since I was eight years old, but they are starting to get really annoying. :dry:

 

I'm thinking about what to eat for dinner...stuck between leftover jumbalaya and leftover pizza.

 

It's pouring super hard outside and the camera flashes are like lightning. Some of the lightning is green too.

 

ARGH I'm having problems with those, too! Stupid little buggers keep trying to land in my tea. (Matter of fact, I just had to kill one as I type this.) So I'm contending with both fruit flies and spiders raining from my ceiling.

At least the baby spiders are easy to kill. :bang: