What are you thinking?

What are you thinking is very quiet today

 

Right now i'm fairly convinced that the best thing about winter is the winter hats <3

 

Hate parents.

 

I only need one more randomized clinical trial to cite to complete my assignment. And the only other one I can find was conducted in Iran, but my professors said I can't use international studies. Fml -_-

 

Ugh, my ribs hurt.

 

I don't know whether to laugh it off or shrug...

How can you get spiteful at somebody, for providing support, on a support forum? I didn't know we were competing for an e-grade, or doing the e-clique trend!

LOL.

 

I need a new hat, I shouldn't have sold my other one...

 

I swear, my mother seems to never be able to fully accept me. I was right after all, my dad is taking it much better, even properly gendering me.

Ever since I was really young my mother has been misgendering trans people, and practically saying "they are their birth sex, no matter what" and such.

Even now that I'm out, she still does it sometimes, then gets upset when I'm offended.

If this doesn't stop, I'm going to have to cut contact with her in the future. Can't have her outing me.

 

Is it bad that I'm slightly hoping the weather will be shitty enough tomorrow so that I can call in and avoid the shift with my dreaded coworker? :/

 

Wait, wait...I can sleep until 7:00 tomorrow morning and not get up at 5:45?!?

 

I wish my mom would stop bashing my GF...:dry:

 

Huh! Sounds like my own! That's one reason I decided to stop introducing partners to her... :dry:

 

Ugh, All my mom would do is hound me to get a GF, And as soon as I found someone she bashes her anytime her name comes up, Even when she asks how things are going. :dry:

 

Maybe she asked you to get a girlfriend from the beginning, just to be able to do that. In other words, an expert troll. :lol:

Who is that character on your avatar, by the way? They seem popular.

 

Jeez Kaiser, why don't you mind your own business. Gosh. No one needs your help, okay? Your concern is unwanted here. Ugh. >.>


^That's not me attempting to subtly strengthen a bond of friendship through shared sarcastic jesting at all. I'm certainly not the kind of person to do that sort of thing.

.....^ Except that I am.

So I picked up another aquarium today. This one was completely free. 40 gallons. Got a few ideas for it. 1) Use it as a plant/holding/quarantine tank. 2) Get a divider and end up moving our two oldest male betta into their own little 20 gallons side by side.

Oh yeah, today was my second day of the new job. And I'm awesome. Oh yeah. I'm also so unbearably exhausted that it makes no sense for me to fight sleep for this computer. It's likely that I'm only doing so in favor of awaiting my husband's arrival from his shower. After all, falling asleep is always better when you've got a cuddle buddy.

 

Just when I was not so dysphoric..

Now I'm thinking about those little things that make me different from other males again...
I wish I could have a COMPLETELY male body.

 

I'm thinking, I want to have every surgery to make my body male, including the hysterectomy and the metoidioplasty..

But then I think about being a helpless hospital patient, with tubes draining urine from me and in a disgusting, vulnerable state and I don't want it anymore

Fuck my life

I think I'm going insane.

 

butt flowers

 

Believe me. Being a hospital patient ain't that bad. It's the waiting that's the worst part.

I will gladly lay in a hospital bed if it means they can deal with whatever the hell is wrong with me or do whatever procedure needs to be done.

Not that it's a good thing to ever need to go to the hospital. Whatever the reason.

I wish they'd offered to cut me up at the hospital Saturday. It's driving me crazy that all they can do is stuff me full of pills.

 

Got done with my night time workout. Yes! *fist pumps*


Time for relaxing on EC and maybe some TV shows.