What Are You Thinking?

Off to work in a bit!

 

I've decided from now til my coming out date, I will watch Coming Out Stories on YouTube, specifically from those that come from Christian familes. I believe those will provide me with the assurance that I am looking for

 

I need to go to sleep!!

 

Superfast Superfast, I come in last, but just in time for breakfast
Keep it through, Keep it through, forever blue
Tonight's the night for action

 

*Continues to take deep breaths*

I love you guys. I hope you realise that. (&&&)

 

mornings
are
evil

 

It's almost two. I really should sleep...

 

And we love you back

 

I swear this thread should be in the Fun and Games forum...

 

There's no serious stuff allowed in F&G

 

for fucks sake. what is the fucking point of this family?

I have a doctors appointment to go to today, and if my attempts to walk to the shop yesterday are anything to go by, I can't walk there. So a parent has to take me. I asked my mother not to mention a couple of things, because she has a history of spewing out tonnes of inappropriate personal things in front of doctors. I don't want to be embarrassed by her talking about how much pain I couldn't deal with a couple of days ago, and thus had to take pills for. It makes me feel weak and pathetic. She refuses to understand this. My mother spends the next ten minutes being passive-aggressive about my theoretical emotions towards her and how if I hated her that much my injured father should take me instead.

Given that she's now refusing to take me, she and my father spent the next ten minutes arguing about whether or not he should walk around the house one more time in order to 'loosen his back up' enough to take me.

 

Unless someone starts respecting my needs in the next ten seconds i'm going to punch a hole through this door

EDIT: come on EC, that was supposed to be in caps. i was fucking shouting. why did you change it?

 

Today is going to be a, surprisingly, busy one. Going to an antique show in awhile then after we get back I'll be going to group. Hoping the former is enjoyable enough to put me in a good mood for the latter.

 

Woke up one more day not knowing what to do.. I gotta get a job or something -.-

---------- Post added 15th Aug 2013 at 08:49 AM ----------

Where else would I get a cheap post in here and there?!

 

Really? Hasn't you just had a trans* surgery? Doesn't it mean that there are tons of people who respect your needs?

 

http://emptyclosets.com/forum/general-support-advice/105215-help-parents-add-life.html

 

I am afraid that doesn't change much. You are lucky to have people around who care and who make the life you want possible. Count your blessings. Don't punch the wall just because you don't have everything you want.

Your parents certainly don't HAVE TO take you anywhere.

 

This morning somebody asked me if I'm a member of staff at the university when I am in fact a twenty year old summer student. Ouch. Why not ask me if I'm pregnant while you're on a roll?

 

Maybe it's because how wise you are looking

 

Oh, thank you. thank you so fucking much. I have no fucking future or hope for one. and i don't have people who care for me. I have people who resent me for fucking up at everything i've ever fucking done

tell me what blessings i have, exactly. tell me what my future's going to be. tell me how much my parents fucking love me, because they don't.

and while I'm at it, what does my parents taking me anywhere have to do with the content of the post.