What Are You Thinking?

Why does PSN take forever when it comes to downloads...

3964 minutes to go..... ok.

 

I feel lonely. Meh.

 

The temperature has got up to the dizzy heights of 16c for the first time since September and it's actually 'too warm' for me.

 

I really wish Mitsunari would just admit that he is gay for Ieyasu. I mean, he has major stalker-with-a-crush tendencies, he hates it when anyone else besides him utters Ieyasu's name, Ieyasu is all he thinks about, he always screams Ieyasu's name with such passion and angst...

And when he

Spoiler

kills Ieyasu in his Heroes ending, he even tries to order a dead Ieyasu to get back up just so he can chase him down again.

Mitsunari, you'll feel a lot better once you just admit that you're in love with Ieyasu.

 

I would kill to have 16c heat. It was 38c here last night at 7, it's much cooler today though, it's down to 29c. Coming from a place where 14c in July would be considered swelteringly hot, this is hellish.

 

Just hit me, seems like it's been ages since I was stressing out over trying to figure out my sexuality, even though I'm not much closer to being a pro-active member of the community or going out with a guy. <___<

Funny how acceptance just happens without a bang [no pun intended.]

 

No more Abilify means new meds. Let's see what happens.

 

Wow, there are dating sites for EVERYTHING. xD I was reading through something on the internet, and the page had a link to a dating site for "gay thugs and gangstas." xD Just a couple of months ago, I saw a commercial on t.v. late a night for a dating site for farmers.

 

Thinking: Why does he want to know what I'm thinking? What is he going to do with this info once he has it?

Must search if he has ever asked the questions, 'What are you feeling? Touching? Tasting? Hearing? Smelling? Has anyone ever replied with an important answer? Are they all honest? Can you see all the deleted 'almost replies'? Do they count as replies if they were deleted & replaced with something else? Does the question ask about right now? Is the answer valid if they reply what they were thinking yesterday? or have scheduled to think about something in the future, & reply with that? "I'm not thinking about anything important right now, but will be tomorrow at 1435 when I'm in my quantum physics class -- I shall be thinking about what my alternate self is replying to this question." Well, that is what I imagine someone in quantum physics class to be thinking.

So many questions, so few who will answer them.

 

[Jumps in to save WAYT? from page two oblivion.]

Last night I began a miniseries titled Phantom India, I'm only two episodes in so far but have been loving it very much. On top of that, something about the dialogue between the director's commentary and the reality the crew depicts makes me want to give Jung's Memories, Dreams, Reflections a third attempt.

My mind makes associations so loose and quickly that I can barely keep up with them sometimes....

 

Eating pizza and watching "Guilt Trip" with my mom <3

 

Today was... interesting. I found out that a close friend of mine is bi (hurray I finally know a LGBT person!) and I think I sort of came out to my closest friends. It was a light-hearted conversation and most of the time we were speaking English (we talk in English when we're joking around). This is how it went:

Je: *makes a remark about a hot shirtless guy on a poster*
Me: Why doesn't that surprise me?
Y: *turns to me* Are you a homosexual?
Me: Uhhh... Do I really have to answer that question?
Y: So you don't want to answer our question?
Je: I think he just did!

*Everyone laughed; followed by a change of subject*

10 minutes later

Y: Are you avoiding our question?
Me: *looks around pretending to know nothing*
Y: You know what I'm talking about.
Ja: It's all right, we won't judge you! It's okay if you like guys or boys.
Me: I guess I don't have a lot to choose from then.

*Everyone realised what she said and we all laughed, then we changed the subject and forgot that I never gave a conclusive answer*

It was kinda fun to keep them guessing. I'm not sure if this counts as coming out though. Anyway, they seem to be okay with the thought of me being gay, so I'm happy (!)

 

As of yesterday, I have an insanely hot new professor. He tried to speak some English today, he was using some proverb or something, and it was the cutest thing ever with his accent. My attendance rate is likely to improve significantly.

 

Some hot Guys on the bus today don't normally do Chav's, but this one on the bus today was as Fit as F:***: he had white Trackies on, not the shiny sort, a Tshirt that showed of his Tattooed muscular arms, he had dark brown hair & a cute face, Hmmmmm
I wanted him Lol

 

Is it Thursday yet? @_@

 

I never did talk to my housemates. So when I got a cookie craving earlier today and was trying to figure out what to do with the leftovers, I realized I could share them. Hopefully that will break the ice a little.

Edit: And this is my 800th post.

 

YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT I LIKE DICK!? Fuck...

 

I'm thinking that downloading that tamagotchi app for my iPod was a bad idea....I leave my iPod for five minutes and I receive 20 notifications because it's lonely.

...I think I just sold my soul.

edit: :roflmao: I actually killed it on day one...I'm a bad parent!

 

I finally found a pair of shorts I like! This is good, because I really like shorts but feel I don't have enough pairs of them...

They're super-comfy, too.

 

Oh, leg day.... T_T