What Are You Thinking?

I just trapped a sizable spider. I don't want to kill it, but I don't know how I can effectively capture it without risking it crawling on me or escaping.

I wonder if there are more where it came from...hope not. Waking up with a spider crawling on me or the wall next to me is not my idea of a good start to a day.

 

A burrito and a few drinks made this day a lot better

 

Thanks for the carrots, Leaves.

 

~Sigh~ Just thinking about all the stress I've been under this week literally makes my head hurt, not to mention prevents me from sleeping. x_x I have to take my mind off it somehow...

 

"Are you happy with your life or just comfortable?"

Holy crap. I have never seen it that way. People usually ask "are you happy or sad?" Well, happy. That's an easy one. But am I comfortable or happy? Damn, I guess I am comfortable more than happy. Time to step it up a notch!

 

I'm going to have to agree with Allegro. I think I have self-inflicted insomnia...

 

KILL IT WITH FIRE. THE FIRE BURNS AWAY THE GUILT.

...I mean, I don't think there's anything morally wrong about killing spiders. Then again, spiders pretty much embarrass me if I'm around people and I happen to see one. I'm 6'5, and a spider smaller than my big toe can paralyze me with fear. Needless to say, I have no objection to arachnicide. xD

 

I'm the kind of person who once got into an argument with someone over my reluctance to kill mosquitoes...though I did drown many ants, so I guess I'm a hypocrite. I'm an odd person.

Either way, the spider is screwed, because there's no way I'm letting it loose inside the apt., and releasing it outside right now will result in its death from drowning anyway due to the strong likelihood that it will rain all night.

 

School! Yeah! But full-time school means little time for working, so I probably won't be able to get a part-time job (they'll probably hire someone with a more open schedule). But it means that
A: I'm finally back to doing something. Maybe that will help my self-esteem.
B: I'm tired!! Waking up at 6a instead of 10~11a, mening I'll have to sleep at 12a instead of 2~4a.
C: mooooose... yeah... what

 

Came out to a friend today and it went well. Sure, it was over the internet but I still had little "I shouldn't tell him" moment and no regret after pressing enter. So much improvement since last time I told someone (a year and a half ago) in which I felt sick afterwards. Success

 

Thinking about how much I want a relationship right now, seeing as I have nothing else to cloud up my mind its the only thing left. I hate being single, granted it gives me freedom to flirt my ass off with who ever I want to and all I would love to have just one person to just be with right now, and preferably a guy too. :/ but at the same time I keep thinking to myself how much of a bad time it would be to start up a relationship with someone. Life just doesn't like to make things easy does it -.-

 

Got an audition next week.

 

I think its time for me to be forgotten, and for me to do some forgetting.

 

History class needs to end...

 

That's... actually a really good question o_o. Hmm...

Exam done! And went as well as expected. Now a couple days to slack and hang with housemates before everyone leaves for the summer.

 

Thinking about this cute transfer student from germany

 

Listening to the sound of my fish tank filter, and remembering all the fish that have perished there from starvation due to my lack of longterm memory/pet-taking-care-of skills. And that one guy that got eaten.

 

Ahh, once again the house is enhanced by the music of Lemmings as I play it...

Now will that damned tune stop going through my head!

 

I am happy with life, always laughing and smiling. I'm confident, and I love myself and my family and friends. But lately, I've just been really lonely. I hang with people sometimes, but usually it's only once a week and that's just not enough. There aren't enough people in my neighborhood to get to know so I'm basically just stuck and it's been tough to make real friends. I know it'll happen soon but that's been pretty tough. Aside from that, I'm so glad I joined this site because it's such a nice, fun community!