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What am I doing here?

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  1. Blast

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    Hello!
    In my friendship groups, online, in public going about my business, amongst my family members, I feel that I am never fully accepted and always misunderstood. And I hate it.

    I thought maybe I could try and fit in here? Maybe I can learn how to be a helpful person who people understand and accept.

    I am fully out but I wont be giving much advice as I can easily come across as harsh and judgemental online for reasons I have yet to fully understand. Forgive me.

    I dont know what I am doing with my life really. I am presented with so many goals and 'opportunities' but half the time I just want to be left alone and half the time I just want to tear them all down and burn them in to ashes.

    Part of me wants to come here and learn. The other half wants to berrate everyone in society for not being more like me.

    I am 26 years old and I sound like a teenager... but I like that in some ways. Teenagers are the best. Teenagers arent complicated. A teenager who hates your guts wont smile at you and ask your nicely for something in the office. You know where you stand with most teenagers, they either look up to you or think you're a worthless old fool and wish you would just go away.

    Part of my problem is, I am a very black and white person. I am passionate in my life. But I am not passionate about the life that society seems to want to foist upon me. A life in which nothing seems to mean anything.

    I guess I am just looking for some friends. Hello.
     
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    Hey welcome to EC.
     
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    Thanks mate
     
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    Hi and welcome to EC:upside_down:

    I don't think that being passionate about your beliefs is a bad thing around here. Sometimes it takes backbone to disagree with someone and having multiple opinions is always a good contribution.

    I actually thought you were a teenager till I read that sentence...:sweat_smile:

    Well, anyway, see you around.:wave:
     
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    Thank your for your welcome and kinds words :slight_smile:

    Whats it like living in space, by the way? :smile:
     
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    Hello Blast! Welcome to EC!:slight_smile:
     
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    Thanks mate.
     
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    alright blast and welcome to EC.
     
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    Hello :slight_smile: I like your signature. Its great :slight_smile:
     
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    cheers blast, it is a shortened version of quote of Lao Tzu.
    it is so true,
     
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    If I may ask, how did you come by him / this quote?
     
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    Hiya Blast! Big welcome to ya! :grin:
     
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    Hello!

    My work colleague went up to Glasgow on Wednesday. They were enjoying the lovely cool weather whilst we were down here in the boiling hot office :sweat_smile:
     
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    Hahahaha oh aye, it's 4 seasons a day up here right now!! Send me your sun! :slight_smile: :slight_smile:
     
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    I am not too sure where i came across it blast, I can't remember if it was from a yoga, meditation site or just randomely found it through google.
     
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    Have you been doing yoga and meditating for long? Do you find it useful?
     
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    Hey mate,

    Joined EC today for the same reason you did (couldn't relate more to what you said), so know you're not alone at all.
    So you have someone here to talk if you need :grin:

    cheers
     
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    Thanks.

    Maybe we can help eachother at some point :slight_smile:
     
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    Hi Blast. I relate to your post. If I may be so bold, the feelings you described are fairly common among gay men coming to terms with themselves and their identities, at least in my experience. For so long we have been looked at (by society and thus, by our selves) as inferior. It can be hard to follow dreams or accomplish goals when we may see ourselves, consciously or unconsciously, as unworthy because of a particular sexual orientation. This forum seems like a safe place to explore identities and discuss these added challenges we, as a community, face in realizing self actualization.
     
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    You're probably right that low self-esteem is a part of it. I do have quite low self-esteem, in some areas, I think and sometimes being in public can be really intimidating for me. I was absolutely shattered on Friday, after work, and I got paranoid and angry as I thought everyone was looking at me, judging me, talking about me.

    Thanks for your comment.
     
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