I'm not sure where this post belongs, but I'm tired of looking so I'm going to just leave it here. I was at the store the other day at this place I was thinking about getting a job when I noticed this employee who was setting off my gaydar like never before. I mean, I don't like to assume, but it was very obvious in his voice, mannerism, and awesome hair. It hit me at that moment that, I want gay friends. Mostly gay male friends. Not because I want fashion advise, or someone to go shopping with. I'm just so sick of feeling alone. Isolated in my own little not-straight world. My only friend is straight and anti-gay. My family besides my sisters is all anti-gay, and says things like "The man who gets you is going to be one lucky guy". I feel like I can't be me around anyone without feeling awkward. I just wish I knew someone who could understand. Who wouldn't judge me, or try to argue. Someone who could relate to my struggles. But I have no one. The chances of spotting an obviously gay person where I live in Texas is rare, but when it happens I get really excited and I don't really know why. Is this weird? Feeling the desire to befriend gay men? I want to meet gay women too, but cute girls make me feel shy . With guys who are only interested in guys, our friendship would not have any romantic tension. I don't know why seeing other gays in general excite me so much, but whenever I see them I want to get to know them. Again I ask, is this weird???