Hey, I haven't been on this forum in like years maybe. But I thought I'd come back because a problem and it's driving me insane. I'm a virgin. That's the problem. I don't know when it started but I wasn't always like this. There was a time not too long ago where I didn't really care. If it happened, it happened. I wasn't putting any pressure on myself. But something changed maybe a year ago. I transferred to a different college and I don't know why I started really, really wanting a relationship and sex. Like desperately. I guess it was seeing everyone all coupled up around school. I had a chance to have sex when I was like 16 or 17 but I didn't because it just felt wrong. I don' think I was ready. I think I did the right thing but I also regret because I haven't had a chance since. People have like hit on me or have been attracted to me since then but it's never gone that far. I'm 22 now and it still hasn't happened. Granted, I haven't really tired to approach anyone because I have pretty low self esteem. I figure no one will be interested in me anyway so I don't try. I tired here and there but they're few and far between. I'm writing this here because I need help. It's starting to get to the point where it's becoming an obsession. So much so that I'm considering maybe paying a sex worker just so I can get it over with. I have a therapist but I haven't been in a while. I think virginity is a construct so I don't have a problem with hiring a sex worker, like I think it would still "count." But I don't feel good about it either. I don't know if it's because subconsciously I think it doesn't count or if it's because I don't wanna have sex with someone I don't know. That's the reason I even approached the girl I did when I was 16, I knew her and I was comfortable with the idea of having sex with her. She wanted more so nothing happened, but I digress, I just want this obsession to stop. I want to chill and enjoy without having to worry about sex 24/7. Can anyone help? Thank you.