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Very painful realization

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by CL1990, Jan 10, 2022.

  1. CL1990

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    im a gay woman in her early 30s with very little to no experience in dating in general (and woman specifically). Ive always blamed it on being unlucky, on being too picky, of not finding gay woman that are my type but ive recently come across across a very unconfortable realization:

    I am absolutely terrified of woman and getting close to one.

    All these feelings have come up after ive met someone i fancy and even though i dont know if she is available to be the prospect of even having a friendship is terrifying. I second guess everything i say and im close to a panic when im about to speak/see her. These feelings thankfully subside when i actually speak to her and i feel very happy when she is nice to me…

    Ive always felt a big sense of shame of having so little experience at my age but now i “see” this side of myself i cant see how i could have experienced with such terrified feelings. any advice? its an intense rollercoaster of emotions
     
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    any advice on this would be greatly appreciated, not sure if anyone else has experienced the same level of fear?
     
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    Hey! I have a similar experience when trying to make new friends. My siggestion to you would be to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. What I mean is start paying attention to the weird feelings ypu gey and focus on them. Once you focus on your discomfort, it'll start to ease away. I hope this help and have a good day!
     
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    thank you for your words! that sounds like a sensible plan and slowly hopefully it will get better!