I said I would keep you all updated, so here goes.. I had a therapy appointment on June 16th, and it went rather well. Both my doctor and "family" are in for a rude awakening. A psych doesn't do evaluations for me to go to a mental hospital. People will laugh at my family if they even try and send me somewhere. My therapist even said that I was of sound mind, that I am able to make decisions on my own. But I told my dad that I got "evaluated" to get him off of my back, and he goes, "So, you can get a job now right?" It doesn't quite work like that bucko. I still have social anxiety. I applied for SSI, so that's some income for me. I don't know when I will get it, but I will (hopefully), I have an attorney (pro bono), so there's that. I still can't believe my dad straight up looked into my doctor's face while we were on the virtual call and goes, "We don't support this." I was almost in tears when he said that. That is when I went off. Talking about my doctor, I wrote her a message today saying that no one or no family member has the right to sit in my appointments anymore. They didn't even have permission to begin with. And I also told her that whatever I say and you say stays between us. My family doesn't need to know a thing about what goes on in my life, especially when they don't support me. I told my doctor that I wanted a flat chest and my period gone because that is what makes me most uncomfortable. Eventually down the road I will want bottom surgery, but I didn't tell her that. I still feel so very uncomfortable living with my dads. Everything was fine until I decided to come out to them. Maybe I should have just kept it to myself and continued being unhappy. But I feel like that would have put me in more of a depressed mood and I wouldn't have been able to come out of it. Other than all of this, I am doing okay. Things are starting to look up for me in a way. I just honestly wish my "family" would leave me alone and let me figure things out for myself. Things don't happen overnight..
That's easier said than done, unfortunately. If I tune everyone else out, it may cause me to lose a place to live. I can't have that right now. So I'm literally just stuck for now.
