I don't why, but I'm really uncomfortable with gay sex, like when only ever watch gay porn, I fantasized about having sex with guys when I jack off and stuff, and I know (well I'm pretty sure, sometimes I doubt) that I'm gay. Like I have no sexual attraction to girls... and I don't want to have sex with them, at all, and I do want to fuck guys. Idk, I kind of think it's weird I guess, but not really, Idk, awkward is a better word.. maybe. I haven't ever done anything with a guy :sadface: so I can't really know. I guess it might be some homunculus created in my mind because of bad repercussions about being gay; my parents were fighting today (violently), and my dad said to my mom "at least there's no homosexuality in my family", my uncle is gay and my great aunt is a lesbian on my mom's side. My parents have strong intuitions (and clues) that I'm gay and my mom said something about me, and my dad I get it from my uncle. That might make my mom sound like she's the victim... but she's not. At all. She's actually worse. Anyways... yeah I don't know how to explain it but I just kind of feel uncomfortable when it comes (PUN ) to gay sex, it's mainly when right after I jack off, especially if I'm watching porn, so it might be just kind of because all of my hormones are shot out of me (PUN )
Just to clarify - what do you mean when you say 'gay sex'? Because that can mean different things to different people. To me it means any sort of sexual contact between two people of the same gender, probably resulting in an orgasm for one or both of them. However, I know some people are more specific and mean just anal sex. So which one do you mean? Or something else? If it's the latter, then you should know that now all gay guys like anal sex, or like it to different degrees. Not all gay guys do it and you don't need to do it if you don't want to (there are lots of other fun ways to spend your time with a guy). If you do eventually decide to try it, you may find you really like it or that you don't care for it, in which case you don't need to do it again. Secondly, it sounds to me that you are either still a bit 'up in the air' about accepting yourself as gay or are living in an environment where there is definite conflict about being gay (and by extension gay sex). So when you're horny you're turned on by gay sex/images of gay sex, but after your orgasm you aren't horny anymore and start feeling guilty for what you were just doing. There's no need to feel guilt about being gay or liking images of gay sex. Being gay is part of who you are and you're young and running on hormones. For you, what you're doing is perfectly natural. Try not to let other people's issues get in the way of it and try to hang in there until you can place yourself in a more supportive environment. Hope this helps, Todd
I was meaning the first one you said. Like I want to do that stuff, and I don't have any problems with anal. I should also mention this is really recent, like I haven't felt like until about last week.. maybe.
