Tw: suicidal ideation. Bad thoughts are back :(

It was the same with my job too. I was paid little and there was no protection or insurance. Idk, probably it just is like that. In my country it's called "garbage contracts", the ones without any protection or insurance, and they dominate the job market.

I'm thinking... maybe you can ask proffessors at university if they know if you could do an internship somewhere? The first jobs are always the most difficult to get and then you gain connections and gets easier.

Because many people don't use their brains at all. Excuse me. If they have a wrong first impression based on assuming that life is the same for all other people, they never question it and don't let information that says they're wrong into their consciousness.

It's okay, diet is a very individual thing, everyone has their own unique possibilities and tastes. I can't eat the whole grain stuff either, it makes me nauseous. Maybe herbal teas can be okay for your kidneys in addition to regular tea? There are lots of teas in different tastes. With vegetables it really depends what you like to eat and which vegetables are not expensive. The more local ones are usually less expensive, so in our part of Europe it would be: potatoes (hm, not much of a vegatable), carrot, celery, onion, beetroot, tomatoes (although these have been hell expensive recently?), cucumber, peas, beans, corn... (the last ones can be canned). Cabbage. I like to make soups or other "one-pot" dishes. Goulash. I eat a lot of risottos, but that's because of the gluten. And I've been eating "buckwheatotto" recenty as well, basically buckwheat with feta cheese and a bit of dried tomatoes and a red pepper. It's also important to balance carbs and fats and proteins in each meal to not have cravings. But one way or another, diet is very individual. There is no one size fits all solution. I prefer boiled vegetables to raw, the raw ones make my stomach hurt and give me some nausea. I mean, when you said you have a taste like a child, this is what I thought about, that you dislike strong tastes and have a problem with nausea, wierd textures and uncooked, dry food make it so much worse.

 

Hm. I'm looking for a good site with recipes and true, lots of them have very harsh tasting food or something expensive like hummus and avocados. Bruh. I don't even think it's healthy to eat so much imported vegetables, they're not fresh, and it's healthier to not always eat the same thing, so seasonal local vegetables and fruit are the best. Or the recipes require a lot of effort. It's not the purpose to get you cooking 8 hours a day *rolls eyes*

 

Honestly even something like beans on toast with some salad leaves thrown in is better than nothing. Meals don't have to be complicated to be healthy.

 

I know, there are also broccoli, cauliflower, brussels sprouts can be added to a soup. I mostly eat broccoli and cauliflower in soups too. I can't eat too much at one time, and I can eat a whole portion of cooked beetroot, carrot with peas or sauerkraut.

Vegetable soup with addition of meat or some legumes can be very good.

And if you like spicy food, you can check out Chinese, Korean and generally East Asian cuisine, it's full of ideas for balanced meals with rice or pasta, meat and vegetables. I love spinach the Korean way so much. (although it has a a strong smell and is a bit wiry even cooked, so idk if you like it)

tomatoes, cucmbers and cabbage sound like greek salad. Or you can have it with white cheese. You can also add raddish to white cheese.

Anyway I'm just throwing around ideas. I'm huge on soups with meat or legumes and on Asian cuisine too, it makes me feel good and satiated for a long time, causes no stomach or nausea problems. Home made salads can also be a tasty way to eat vegetables and make you satiated for a long time.

 

Oh good I'm glad to hear that and it sounds very nice to relax and enjoy the present moment. Do you make videos of the places and views you like so you can watch them anytime? I thought you were on a wall, dangling your feet above the water below and could fall in easily so I was worried.

I get the same anxiety that people think I'm no good for various reasons, but they're probably not. If they were, then they have no idea what you or I've been through and health issues. If they had to deal with our shit, they'd never last as long as us, so they are silly know nothings and shall be ignored. Take care

 

Huh, what were you lacking and was it for bipolar 1 or 2? Maybe we could all use a little lithium to stabilize our moods

I wish you were feeling better and not stress while finishing your uni work. You've done great and I'm happy and proud of you! One step at a time