Hello everyone. I was just thinking to myself, and I decided I'd put my thoughts out here for others to reply to. Physically speaking, I have a very masculine body, so any kind of cross gender kind of expression comes across as fairly forced. (looks wise, but not as much behavior wise) And its not uncommon for me to dream of myself as another gender or crossdress in my dreams. In fact, even when I am a man in my dreams, which is most of the time, my mental image of myself is often not very true to my actual body. I don't usually actually feel or act feminine in real life, but then again, I've never had a safe way to express it either. It's kinda been a suppressed thing since I was little. I don't think I would shun such things if it were to come in a natural way, without fear of judgement. I just know, that I take very little pride in my appearance and feel as if there is an outlet of expression missing to me. I don't know how much of it is simply a feeling of unfulfillment and longing for something I don't have, and how much of it actually represents a genuine way of being? I don't think I would be unhappy as a woman, but I honestly don't think I would be happier either. It'd just be replacing my current problems with different problems. So I wonder, how much of this is just dreaming and longing for what I don't have, or how much of this is genuinely a need to express the feelings and desires of some inner, feminine version of myself?