As much as I know our friendship will never go to the level I would want, expect on occasion when she is drunk, I miss her and I hate this feeling. Why can't I let her go? After all, she said it is all fun and adventure for her when I have fallen for her. Deciding to sober up (with an occasional social drink) has been the best thing that I have done. . . but, yeah, I miss her and I just had to write it down before I feel like I am going to go crazy.