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There is no light in here

Discussion in 'The Welcome Lounge' started by spencer b, Jun 14, 2021.

  1. spencer b

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    Sixty years in the closet and I cannot see a way out. I didn't know I was entering a closet when I first found sex with the boy in the dairy next to my parents ranch. Instinctively I knew to conceal my desire, not for my friendship for the boy next door, but for his body which made me feel so wonderful.

    After sixty years in here I am still seeking the pleasure and warmth I lost when I left him for a conventional life. But, each encounter ends in a furtive good by as I step back into that space of no light where fear is my only emotion.
     
  2. spencer b

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    I apologize for not proofing before posting.
     
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    Spencer....Hello and a great big LGBTQIA+ welcome to Empty Closets! :old_smile: There are a number of sub-forums here on EC...why don't you check them out and then feel free to join in the conversations! You can ask questions in any of the Sub-forums by creating a new thread or by joining in a conversation-thread that is already going. You can also post a message on anyone's Profile Page. If you have a question that is somewhat private you can always send a Private Message to any Staff Member. Normally Private Messages can only be exchanged between two Full Members, but a PM to a Staff Member is an exception. :old_wink: We are so glad that you have found us here on Empty Closets! :old_big_grin:
    .....David :gay_pride_flag:
     
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  4. LostInDaydreams

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    Welcome to EC. :slight_smile:

    I’m sorry that you are struggling with your sexuality. Being in the closet is hard and does not get easier with time.

    Can you identify the barriers that are stopping you from moving forwards?

    I hope that you find the support you’re looking for here.
     
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    Welcome Spencer B,

    I just came out to myself and my wife as bisexual in 2018. That was decades after puberty. I’ve found Empty Closets, and the Later in Life forum here, to be a very nice supportive place. I’m glad you are here!