Ah so okay I saw my LGBT therapist for the second time today and we went through my history like she has asked and well, she said that my identity might need to go on the back burner because I have so much unaddressed trauma throughout my entire life that I really am not going to get anywhere with my identity issues until I see a specialist she referred me to, whose specialty is trauma. The other specialist works with LGBT community as well so she's safe. But my therapist says she still would like to see me but my level of trauma has to be addressed first. Sooooooooo... that makes me sad. So I guess I decided to just call myself 'queer' for now and stop trying to categorize myself because apparently I'm all kinds of messed up and have to put that on the to-do list after I have danced with all the skeletons first. Don't really know how to take this. ??????