Someone who is non-binary please help me accept the part of my gender that is closer to the one assigned at birth. If I was reppressing the other, now I'm repressing this one. I don't know why, maybe because it seems to me that binary trans people have an easier life (?). I don't like the idea of breaking rules, of being queer; I just want to be normal, and binary trans people can go stealth and "look" normal. I fear, fear my feminine side. What a stupid thing to do. It's like a girl and a man inside me are fighting to blood in order to gain control over my identity. It's so irrational. I hate this situation. I'm sitting in the darkness.